A summer with Sway LA

chapter 11

(A/n this chapter contains really sensitive topics that could trigger someone please be aware of that before reading, i hope you like it )

Bryce-' what the hell is all the shouting for'
Mads-' get of him' she ran up to me and pulled me off he lap but before she could do anything else griffin rushed up and grabbed hold of her. Jaden gave me his hand and pulled me of the floor and into his arms.
Jaden-'are u okay princesses'
Lexie-'yeah im alright, what is she talking about'
Mads-' I'll tell u what I talking about, before u showed up with your sob story and started batting your eyelashes at all the boys jaden was mine, all mine and he still is'
Lexie-' how was I supposed to know that' I broke free from jadens arms and walked towards her
Mads-'u knew alright, I bet u and bryce where planning on destroying every relationship in here.'
Bryce-' what has this got to do with me'
Mads-'did u know they used to date, did you! and the only reason they broke up is because she tried to kill herself'
My eyes fill with tears and anger comes over me I have no idea what I'm doing but all I know is she needs to pay.
Lexie-' my past has nothing to do with you'
Mads-' It does when jaden is all over u and not me'
Lexie-' so you brought u the worst part of my life because you are jealous'
Mads-' of what '
Lexie-' the fact the jaden doesnt want you and he wants me '
Mads-' get over yourself'
Lexie-' no, it's the truth isnt it, since the minute I met you, u have been nothing but a vindictive, heartless, two faced bitch. You have no idea what I've been through and no idea why I did what I did.' I got in her face shouting at her.
Mads-' you are nothing but a worthless, whore' the word rang in my ears 'whore' it brought back memories of the times noah would hurt me and call me names. I broke down even more, I couldnt breath, everything started to go dizzy, I was have a panic attack.
Bryce-'lexie!' I felt someone wrap their arms around me and place me on their knee I leant in and they held me close rocking me back and forth stroking my hair.
??-' it's going to be okay'
I looked up and through my blurry eyes I could see him.
Bryce-' it's ok, breath in and out, come on do it with me'
Lexie-' I c ca cant'
Bryce-' it's okay cupcake I'm here, he isnt going to hurt you now, I promise '
Jaden-' shes having a panic attack isnt she'
As soon as I heard jadens voice I new I need him
Lexie-' bryce, I need jaden' my voice is nothing more than a whisper. I felt him stand up with me still in his arms and then place me on someone's knee I turned to see jadens face looking down at me he pulled me into him and I started to calm down after a few minutes I was back to normal.
Jaden-' hey princess, how you feeling'
Lexie-'im okay, where is everyone' I said looking around and seeing no one
Jaden-' they all went into the front room, to give you space'
Lexie-'can we go in'
Jaden-' are you sure, you dont have to'
Lexie-' I need to explain everything to everyone, and to you' I looked him in the eyes and he tucked hair behind my ear before cupping my face with his hand.
Jaden-'you dont need to explain anything, its okay lexie'
Lexie-'thank you, but I want to'
Jaden-' okay'
He let me get of him and stood up grabbing my hand and we both walked inside together finding everyone sat around.
Nessa came rushing up to me and grabbed me into a hug.
Nessa-' omg are you okay'
I hugged her back and smiled at her once we broke apart.
Lexie-'im okay, I just need to explain everything to you guys' I said as I looked at everyone they all gave me worried smiles, nessa sat back down and I stood in front of everyone jaden came up next to me and held my hand.
Jaden-' you've got this lex'
I smiled at him and saw mads coming in.
Nessa-' get the hell out, now'
Lexie-' ness, it's okay she needs to know aswell'
She sits down nest to addison and addison moves away from her.
Lexie-' right I'm going explain what mads was talking about and I would apreciate it if you didnt interupt me and just let me talk and then u can ask questions once I'm done, its just if I stop I dont know if I will be able to carry on'
Josh-' go at your own pace lex we understand'
Griffin-' of course we are all here for you'
Lexie-' thank you guys you are the best'
Jaden squeezes my hand and I smile at him.
Lexie-' as you know my and bryce grew up together and we were extremely close, we still are, me and bryce actually started dating when I was 14 obviously he was 15 but it wasnt that much of  an age difference. Everything was great and amazing, however my mum had been suffering with cancer for 2 years, she passed away a few weeks before I turned 15, it hit me really hard and I became severely depressed and started to harm myself because I hurt so much we continued to date through this but I was hurting so much that I couldnt love someone else and I started to push him away we ended up breaking up after 16 months and that hurt me really bad because I felt that the only reason I was alive, I had ruined and pushed them away I got severely worse and yes I did try to take my life but thankfully, bryce found me and took me to the hospital and I got help and had many months of therapy, but it left me seriously damaged and suffering from anxiety. Me and bryce stayed close and he supported me through everything eventhough I know I hurt him as much as he hurt me and I am so grateful for that. Everything was okay for a while and I didnt have many panic attacks, about 8 months ago I met a boy called noah and I started to crush on him the thing was that he was labelled as a player and everyone warned me away from him but I didn't listen we started to date and he started to pressure me to sleep with him, I had sever trust issues and told him that once I trusted him I would but I didnt trust him, this caused him to get controlling and stop me seeing my family,friends and especially bryce, he would go out and get drunk cheating on me then come and shout at me calling me names and accusing me of cheating on him with Bryce after a while it got worse he started to hit me and kick me all because and these are his words ' I give you everything and you wont sleep with me, he saves you once and you will' I used to blame my self and say that I had fallen if anyone saw the brusies he left on my body, however this one day he came in not drunk at all and started shouting at me calling me a whore and admitting that he had slept with other people he hit me in the eye and started saying that i should have died and that his wasnt surprised my mum was dead when I act like I do, something in side of me made me switch and I went mental hitting him, shouting smashing his stuff and packed my bag told him to die and to never contact me again before driving to my dads and collapsing on the floor where I saw Bryce again for the first time in 5 months. the reason I started to have a panic attack was because mads called me a whore and it brought back memories from the times he would hit me, so thats me I am hella messed up but I am trying to put my past behind me and move on' I looked around at everyone.
Nessa, addison, avani all ran up to me grabbing me in a massive hug.
Ant-'im so sorry that happend to you lexie'
Josh-' I dont know what to say'
Mads -' i am so sorry I didnt realise how serious it was'
Lexie-'its okay, I didnt tell anyone because I didnt want you to treat me any different'
Quinton came a hugged me.
Quinton-' she would be proud of you lex'
Lexie-' of both of us'
Bryce came u to me and hugged me.
Bryce-' you feeling alright'
Lexie-' I'm okay, I think it's the first time I have ever said it all out loud'
Bryce-' you did amazing'
Addison-' do u guys still have feelings for each other'
Lexie-' not at all, I obviously love him so much he means the world to me and I am extremely grateful for everything he did for me, but we are nothing more than friends now'
Bryce-'100%, as weird as it sounds she is like family to me and means the world to me'
Addison-' oh okay, that good' a smile appeared across her face and I pushed bryce into her and smile back. I turn around to see jaden standing there his eyes are red and puffy I walk up to him.
Lexie-'hey what's up jay'
He made eye contact between us and wrapped his arms around my waist.
Jaden-'it just hurts me that you ever felt like you weren't perfect'
Lexie-' it's okay Jay, I'm okay. I have amazing friends and family........and you'
Jaden -' you are never gonna get rid of me u know that dont you'
Lexie-'good'
We chilled out for a few hours and I uploaded the pictures avani took of me earlier, before me and jaden went up stairs at 11.30 because it had been one hell of a day as I layed there in his arms slowly falling asleep I hear him whisper
Jaden -' you are perfect lexie and I will never let anyone hurt you ever again'
I was about to turn around he clearly thought I was asleep but then he said something else.
Jaden-' I love you lexie'

(A/n- I did want to have this up yesterday, but it was a really hard one to write I was debating how deep to go with it. I hope you enjoyed it and you now know about lexies past and her relationship with Bryce, what do you guys think? Please comment below and thank you for reading this extra long chapter x )