Mothers (girlxgirl) (Book 3)

Looking for Answers

Buffy's POV

What the heck happened?

I lean back in the chair I'm sitting in at the hospital. I look around Anya's room and sigh as we wait for Xander and the doctors to finish so they can bring Anya back from her latest therapy session.

I was up most of last night thinking about it and I've been thinking about it most of today but I'm still not totally sure what happened. I don't know why I kissed her. It just felt like the thing to do at the time. It felt right. I'm not really sure why it felt right though. With everything that's happened, I haven't felt that way about her in a long time. Ever since Dawn died, I've felt differently towards her. She hasn't given me that horny feeling since what happened to Dawn. And I didn't feel that way last night either. Yet for some reason I felt the need to kiss her. It was a strange feeling, but not really a bad one. I have no idea why it happened.

I look over at Faith for a second, but look away before she notices.

For so long I hated her guts. I felt like ripping her guts out. I really couldn't stand the sight of her. But things have changed now. We've become friends, and it's a really great thing. We aren't more than that. I still don't know why it felt so good to make out with her. No matter how short it was. I don't know what happened. At least we won't be doing any jumping if there is anything between us, which I don't think there is. We can't go jumping into anything.

I take a deep breath.

"You okay?"

I turn to Faith at her question.

"Hmm?"

"Are you okay?"

"Oh, uh yeah... I'm good."

"I just asked because you looked deep in thought."

"Yeah, I was just thinking about... life."

She smiles at me.

"Wanna talk about it?"

I pause for a few moments.

"No, it's all right. It was just random thought stuff, nothing all that important."

"Okay..."

Just then, the door opens and Giles walks in with three cups of coffee in hand.

"Hey Giles... thanks for getting the coffee."

He hands both of us a cup and keeps one for himself. He looks around the room.

"It's my pleasure. Xander hasn't returned with Anya?"

"They should be here any minute."

The door swings open and Xander wheels Anya into the room.

"Well speak of the devil."

Anya scoffs at Faith's comment.

"Oh please, the devil is so much scarier then I could ever have even hoped to be."

Wait...

"The devil? You know the devil?"

"Duh, anyone who's anyone in the demon community meets him. He makes a point of meeting just about every demon he can, just in case he needs them for his big end of the world. He's all about his big war for humanity, it gets kinda dull after the 200th time you hear it. But don't worry, from what I last heard it'll be at least a thousand years before he can pull it off. You'll be long dead before anything remotely hellish breaks loose."

Well that's a comfort.

Faith and I look at each other.

"Okay, that's a good thing I guess."