Mothers (girlxgirl) (Book 3)

Trauma

Author's Note: I'm going to reiterate what was in the author's note of She Who Was My Love. This is one of those times.

Buffy's POV

I have to do something.

I take a deep breath as I make my way to Faith's motel.

There has to be a way that I can get Faith to talk to her mother so they can patch things up. I have so many things I wanted to do with my mom. We didn't spend that much time together over the last few years. I was so busy with school, and then everything with Faith and Omega and then dying and coming back and... Dawn.

My feet and I come to a dead stop in the middle of the sidewalk as I close my eyes to remember Dawn's face.

Sweet little Dawnie... we never had the time to be anything more than sisters. We never had a chance to be mother and daughter like we should have been, like Mom and I should've been. I spent so much time yelling at her as a kid, causing her all kinds of stress and pain on top of that. Making her wonder where I was all the time when I was out slaying and couldn't tell her.

I open my eyes and wipe at the tears formed in the corners as I make my way to Faith's again.

Then I went and made her worries worse by telling her I was a slayer. I had so much I wanted to do with her. So much I wanted to share with her. There are all sorts of things that I'll never be able to do with her because she's gone. I can't let that happen to Faith. She still has the chance to do with her mom what I'll never be able to do. Faith can still say what I can never say. I won't let Faith lose that shot. There HAS to be something I can do to make it happen.

I stop in front of Faith's motel door and take a deep breath. Knocking softly, I wait a few moments for an answer. The door opens and I see Faith standing on the other side.

"Hey B..."

I smile weakly at her and she returns it.

"Hey, can I come in?"

She moves out of the way.

"Come in..."

I go inside and she closes the door behind me. We face each other and a moment of silence falls on us.

"So... how are you?"

Me?

"I'm okay I guess... today feels like a good day so far. What about you?"

"I've been better. Can I get you something to drink or something?"

I hold up my hand for a second and smile.

"No, but thank you..."

"All right..."

A deafening silence follows her last statement for a few moments.

Okay then, I'll start.

"So... your mother's in town eh?"

Faith turns away and starts slowly pacing.

"Not if she knows what's good for her."

What?

"You shouldn't talk like that about your mother Faith. I mean, she did raise you didn't she?"

She stops and faces me.

"More or less..."

"What does that mean?"

"It's a long story B."

I lessen the gap between us.

"I don't have anywhere else to be."