I recently read all of my realizations from the first round and about to read the last entry to her. I could hear slight voice changes as I read my realizations. Though I doubt they mean anything significant.
I've lost her. Probably for good. The only thing that's ever truly meant the universe to me, gone. And that's a high rank, given my love for physics. I feel so terrible. I was a jerk, she didn't deserve it. I didn't deserve her.
Just a short follow up entry. Not much. I guess it's healthy to vent.
-JNF3
