My Only

Chapter 3

"hoy wag kasi!!! Nakakahiya!!"

"Bitch wag kang mahiya chance mo na ito!"

"Eh ayoko nga punyeta"

Pinipilit kasi nila ako na lumapit sa crush ko, nalaman kasi nila yung tinulungan niya ako sa assignment namin noong isang araw, kaya ayan, nandito kaminsa may library ulit kasi nandito yung crush ko sinisilip siya ngayon ng mga kaibigan ko, medyo malayo yung table niya sa table namin, feeling ko nahahalata niya na tinitingnan siya ng mga 'to kasi napapasilip siya sa side namin.

"Hoy mga bruha tumigil na kayo kakasilip nahahalata na ata niya". I said to them cause they're obvious. "Gagi hindi yan" pabalang na sagot sa akin ni trish. Hay nako bahala sila magbabasa na lang ako.

Kinukulbit ako nina trish pero hindi ko sila pinapansin kasi nga nagbabasa ako, ayoko ng istorbo duh. "Hi elle" napatingin ako sa nagsalita, pag angat ko ng ulo ko si kian yung nakita ko syempre nagulat ako "Hi?" Medyo alinlangan pa ako sa pagsagot "may kasabay ka ba paguwi mamaya?" He asked. I was shocked, it's because we're really close as in we only talked once at ayun yung tinulungan niya ako sa assignment ko. "Uhm sina--" I didn't even finished my sentence when claire interrupted me. I glared at her "naku wala yan kasabay, kasi you know magkakaiba kami ng paradahan, and her paradahan din kasi is far from here sa school natin" sabat niya. "Oh okay so sabay tayo later?" He asked me again, now I can finally answer him "uhm okay" i smiled. "Great! I'll wait for you at the gate. See you!" He said then walked away.

"Omg! Your crush is improving huh?" Sabi ni claire. Yeah right, as if this will be longer. I know he like someone else and it's one of my friends, great right? I laughed sarcastic.

I actually don't wanna go home early, or should I say, I don't want to be with kian but I have no choice 'cause I said okay ealier. Nang makarating na ako sa gate ay agad niya akong nakita then he smile at me, my heart skip fast and I don't want it, I should stop this, I'm just going to be hurt.

"So tara na?" Sabi niya nang makalapir na siya sa akin. "Ah okay" I respond, I'm not in the mood today, and he talks a lot and makes me irritated but I chose to be quiet. When we reach my paradahan, he bid goodbye na and i said goodbye too. Nothing special, I know he's just doing this because he likes claire. He wants to be close with claire, but I don't get it why he asked me na sabay na kami umuwi, like wtf? Aish I'll just go with flow na lang, as if I have a choice, my friends will just tease me. They'll say that I'm pabebe if I refuse to be with kian.

I didn't mean to over heard kian and his friends, they said that I'm the closest one to Claire and he should be friends with me so that they can be close too. I'm pissed, I'm thinking that he is just using me, yes he is my crush but I'm the type of person na martyr, if the persons doesn't like me then I don't like them too.

The next day, my day went well I guess? But suddenly came up, Kian is here again at the library. Aish I don't want to go home early 'cause I'm just going to be bored in our house, I have choice to stay here at the library. I'll just stay here quietly, so he will not notice me.

"Elle" I looked up to see who called me and it's Kian, punyeta wala ba siyang magawa? At ako ang kanyang ginugulo. "Ano?" I said "sabay ulit tayo umuwi?" He smiled, can he just ask my friend instead of me? He likes Claire not me, so why is he always asked that damn question, it's so annoying. "No thanks" pabalang na sabi ko "uhm ano pwedeng magtanong?" He asked "What is it?" I respond.

"Anong gusto mo sa isang lalaki?" Napatingin ako sa kanya medyo nagulat sa tanong kasi bakit siya magtatanong ng ganyan out of nowhere diba.

"Someone who will love me the way I deserve it." I said without looking at him. "Oh, that's it? No specific words? Like mabait, matalino ganon?" Naiinis na ako tanong nang tanong badtrip.

"kung kanino titibok 'tong puso ko doon ako pero kung hindi naman ako gusto ng tinitibok nito, titigil ako." Yun na lang nasabi ko at umalis na sa library.

Damn. It hurts when I remember that he likes someone else and that was my friend, my closest friend. I laugh sarcastically. Crush? It's not a crush anymore.