Gusion's POV:
Frankly i couldn't sleep at all; nothing helped. I didn't know what to do, it was all confusing to me, what i felt what i was supposed to feel and how things can turn from here. I didn't really wanted her gone but she had to go; i can't let her stay when i am finally moving on to someone better. Speaking of someone better, i had to make it up to Lesley god what am i supposed to do? I just gave her mixed feelings and I don't want to be that guy. I have to talk to her tomorrow itself.
Tomorrow came and yet I found myself awkwardly staring at her in the breakfast table not a single word coming from my mouth. She knew i was staring because she kept looking at me from time to time too and it was just getting more and more awkward.
'Good breakfast.' I said and everyone looked at me with weird eyes. Lesley choked on the water and Kimmy hid her laugh.
Why the hell would i even say that? I stood up and went away leaving my food and that made me seem even bigger of a moron but i couldn't go back in there so i went to the training field and was soon joined by Chou.
'You know I'm not so good with feelings and emotions thing but I can sense you're troubled. I'm here if you want to talk.' He said and patted my shoulder.
'Is it so obvious?' I ask
'Yeah, nobody says 'Good breakfast' while staring at Lesley.'
'It's just, I don't know what to do or say, i feel trapped.' I say and he looks at me
''Guess how she must be feeling then. You kissed her in front of everyone, left her out of embarrassment and now are ignoring her. It makes zero sense.'
Later in the evening, I noticed a spy hidden in the woods and i brought him in the castle, dragging him by the collars.
'EVERYONE, HERE NOW!' I yell and everyone came in immediately within 15 seconds and assembled in the hall.
'This guy has been spying on us for days I assume and nobody noticed this?! Even when on patrols you didn't notice him?' I yell and Leomord and Badang speak nothing, their heads hung low.
'Who do you work for?' I ask the guy and he didn't speak a word. He looked angry and just glared at me.
'Screw you!' He says barely able to breathe.
'Wrong answer!' I say and i bash him on the stomach until he coughed blood. Nobody dared to say a word.
'WHO DO YOU WORK FOR?!' I scream and this time i could see Lesley flinching from behind, her eyes tightly shut. I knew she thought of me as a monster.
'He's been watching all of our moves, figuring out all of our plans and you all sit here laughing, oblivious to people tracing and mapping us out!'
'I'm going to ask you one more time, and if you don't answer me or give me any false answers, your death will be the most painful one I've ever given anyone.Who do you work for?' I say and i could see him fearing at me. And I loved it. He looked terrified and I loved the feeling.
'Karrie.' He said and didn't speak a word anymore.
'What is their plan?' I ask and he laughs at me, didn't give me any answer.
I hit him harder and harder until his face disfigured and after torturing him, i take my blade out and just when i was about to do the deed, Lesley came to me, trembling and held my hand which contained the blade.
'Please.. Please don't,' she said her eyes full of tears and her shaky hands trying to get the blade away from me.
My eyes were red with rage and that's how it's always been, bloodshot red everytime i was angry and i knew this terrified a lot of people, but seeing her terrified of me wasn't a good feeling.
Her touch made me shiver from delight and she took the blade away from me while the beast was on the floor, bleeding to death. I could feel her hand still shivering and she didn't look me in the eye at all and i walked out of the room.
I noticed how her touch made me calm within the second she did so and i felt very weird about it, i never thought i could control my rage, not at all, it would take me hours to calm down but this girl was doing the most impossible thing and i stepped out in wonder of what more she was capable of.
Later in the night after i came back to the house, I saw Chou nodding at me to go talk to Lesley/
'You're right. I should make things more clear.' I say and I head inside wanting to talk to her but I see her talking to Ling, all friendly, too close!
'OI!' I yell and both of them look at me surprised with a 'WHAT-THE-HELL' look screaming from their faces.
'Lesley, in my study, NOW.' I snarl and i see her twitch with fright as i headed straight to my study room with no words.
After around 7 seconds i hear my door shut and her heel sound could be heard coming to a halt.
'Yeah?' She asks her voice kind of cold, not replying out of courtesy but out of compulsion.
I turn towards her and I near myself to her, closer and closer and I stop very near her. She looked scared and that pained me. She wasn't supposed to be scared of me, she was supposed to... just not be scared, i wouldn't ever harm her.
'Hey, open your eyes.' I say, her face hurting me very much.
'Don't be afraid.. what are you scared of?' I ask, bending down so that i could see her face clearly.
I lifted my hand to get my phone from the table but she closed her eyes even tightly and put her hands in front of her face, defending herself.
'You thought i was about to.. hit you?' I ask, holding both her hands and lowering it down. She looked at me, very scared her eyes full of tears ready to shed down any minute.
'I would never hit you.' I say but i felt myself breaking at this point. That's when i realized that I was falling hard for her, more than i should be.
I then brought her close to me and hugged her while she cried a pool of tears.
'Do you think I'm a monster?' I ask her.
'I know you're trying to protect all of us but, that rage in you scared me. I'm falling for you and i know it's stupid because you'd never like me but then it's difficult to let go and you're so scary i don't know what to do.' She replies, making half sense but i could make full sense of what she said.
'Who said i didn't like you?' I ask her and she looks at me while i wipe her tears away.
'I like you a lot Lesley, and although i had been ignoring you i, i didn't know if it was right or wrong and today when you calmed me down, it was like magic, i never thought i could be calmed this fast yet you just touched me and i felt almost too happy. Don't be afraid of me. I can't see that.' I say looking at her.
She gazes me back with hopeful eyes and i couldn't help myself.
I leaned down and kissed her and she kissed me back. I could feel every emotion of hers through the kiss. She was scared but she didn't want to be. I want to commit to her and i knew she would do the same to me.
'Lesley, i know i should have asked you way before but, will you be my girlfriend?' I ask her, my heart pounding for a yes and she smiles at me and says 'Yes, of course.'
I kiss her again this time confirming our bond.
