I Love You Too Much To Let You Go

Chapter 7 Jack Pov

"So will you?" Then boom, I woke up in an ambulance, "w-what happened?" I had a banging head ache "a car crashed into and you're friend, but we're not sure if you're friend is gonna make it, I'm sorry"

"No! No! This can't happen! It's been six months since I last saw him! I love him! You have to do something! Please!" I start crying

"sir calm down please, lay down you're in shock" "Of course I'm in fucking shock, you just told me my boyfriend might die!" "Boyfriend?" I heard from the driver I look it was Jason,

"Jason! Drive! He's dying!" "No he's not! He's fine! Just blacked out" I could tell he was trying to keep me calm, we arrive at the hospital,

they put me in a room, and Alex in a different one, "Jack! My baby!" Mum runs in and hugs me along with May and Jason "t-thank you J-Jason" I said crying

"hey mate, it's my job" he said messing up my hair, "where's my boy?!" "You! You stay away from my little brother you got me? I don't want my brother hanging around with a Faggot" Tom said

"Tom get lost, you're brother and family are the reason why my little brother left, for four years and now another six months! Thanks to you're fucked up family" May never swears, "l-leave them I-it's my fault A-Alex is like t-that" "no it's not, it's mine" Zack walks in

"I crashed my car into you guys" "leave" "who?" "Mum, May Jason leave now!" They walk out the room and Zack is standing in the middle of the room,

"why? Why did you run us over? You're the same Zack you've always been, a prick, ruining people's lives!" "That's not true Jack!" "Yes it is! You ran us over because you're a homophobic piece of shit!" "Stop! I'm not homophobic!" "Yes you are! You're a bitc-" I got cut off to him kissing me,

I'm in shock I don't know what to do, for some stupid reason I kissed him back, "I did all that stuff when we were younger because I love you, I bullied you because I took my fathers word Treat the mean Keep them keen, and I thought It worked I was a stupid teenager I'm sorry, Jack I was a stupid teenager and I'm stuck in the position"

"you love me?" "Yes! Are you thick? I'm jealous of Alex, ever since we were young, Alex told me once when he was drunk that he had feelings for you, ever since then, I've been jealous, because you're amazing, you're adorable, smart, funny, kind, caring, your always there for people no matter what"

"that doesn't mean you can fucking run us over!"

2 weeks pass

I'm lying on my bed, thinking about Alex and Zack, I love Alex, Zack loves me, I get up and walk to the park,

I see the Gaskarths including Alex sitting at a table "you faggot!" Tom yells at me "stay away from my family!" Mark yelled he looked down "Alex you never answered my question" I was just standing there "just fuck off Jack" "ok"

I walk off the other way, away from my house away from the people that ruined me "hello Zack, I'm coming over weather you like it or not" I hung up

I'm annoyed and frustrated sexually and mentally, I get into my car and drive to Zacks, I knock on the door he answers it, I take him by the shirt and take him up to his room,

"J-Jack what are you doing? What about Alex?" "Fuck him" I said pushing him onto the bed and straddling him , I kiss him roughly he kisses back I take off his shirt and pants, I wake up in Zacks bed, with his head on my chest

I get up and put my shit back on "making a runner hey?" "I gotta go, I never told my family where I was" i walk out the door "can I call you?" "Yeah, yeah you can"

I drive home, and flop onto my bed, "FUCK!" I scream, I lock my door, I run into my bathroom "why? Hey? Why are you such a fucked up failure? Why did you fuck Zack? Why did you even come back? YOURE A FAILURE THAT NO ONE WILL EVER CARE ABOUT!"

I smash my mirror "now that's seven years of bad luck you know" I turn around to see May standing there, fuck I forgot she had a spare key

"get out May!" I yell "you had sex with Zack Merrick didn't you?" "May!" "Oh Jacky" she hugs me "he hates me May, the one man I will truly have feelings for hates me"

I'm balling my eyes out, "lie down, relax I'll bring up tea" she closes my door, I get up and look out the window Alex is standing outside on his phone, he looks up at me and sees that I've been crying, he looks at me I stick the finger up, it's uncalled for I know but I couldn't careless at this point,

I flop back onto my bed and just start crying, mum comes in "Jack i know it's been rough, the few passes of weeks, but Bella has decided that we, talk this all threw, and they want to apologise, because they didn't know, it wasn't you're fault and what the hell did you do to you're mirror?"

I stay silent not saying a word just crying, she leaves the next person that knocks on my door was May to tell me the Gaskarths were here,

I got forced down the stairs by my older but smaller sister pushing my back, I look at the Gaskarths "Jack, we want to say sorry, sorry for accusing you for what happened to Alex" Bella said "I'm sorry for calling you a faggot" Tom said "I'm sorry for threatening you" Mark said

"its fine, just forget about it, nothing ever happened" I said with a straight face, walking into the kitchen,

then I have a hand being placed on my shoulder, "I saw you leave Zacks early this morning doing the walk of shame?" "No he's the one that's gonna be walking funny" "so you had sex with him, my best friend and you had sex with him?" "It was easy to tell you hated me today, he told me some interesting things at hospital"

"that doesn't mean you sleep with my best friend" " yeah well you're 'best friend' ran us over" "fuck off jack" he walks away and out the front door, "we'll be better be off" Bella said exchanging goodbyes and they left,

"Jack we have new neighbours, and there's a lovely young girl there" "you're joking right? Mum I'm gay, deal with it!"

I storm upstairs and lock myself in my room, my phone goes off, Its Zack

From: Zack
Alex knows

To: Zack
I know he was talkin to me bout it, I honestly couldn't careless

From: Zack
But he's my best mate

To: Zack
Fuck off

I slam my phone on the bedside table and juts sit there on my bed thinking if I should've done that, If I should've done Zack actually,

my phone buzzed once again it was from Alex

From: Lexy❤️
Two can play at that game it hurts doesn't it, when you think you love someone and then they sleep with someone else cya jacky x

He sent a photo of him in Rians bed! Rian was my best mate! Fucking bitch!

I run downstairs and get into my car and drive to Rians house, I knock on the door he answers "Jack! I haven't seen you in years!" He hugs me "where is he?" "Who?" "You fucking know who Alex" "oh you talking about me" he winks that fucking bitch he's in his boxers

"He's my best mate!" "And he was mine" "You're acting like a child Alex!" "Oh I'm the child?! I said that in the park because my parents were around! Then you go and fuck Zack?!" "You fucked Zack?!" "Shut up Rian" "you think you're so cool, with you're tattoos, piercings, mixed hair, well you're not! You're a failure, a cheating, lying, fucked up failure!" I go silent,

"thanks for making my worst nightmares come true" I walked out the door.