Can I have your number? [Completed] ✅

20 - Repercussions

Taehyung's POV

It's been almost four months since the abduction, and the scandal that ensued thereafter, and my Jin has never been the same. In the beginning he had night sweats and would wake up screaming. I stayed with him throughout these. I never realised just how traumatic this would be for him.

I encouraged him to see a therapist and he did, he tried for a few weeks but it never worked out. I watched as all the pressure of the media, the impending trial and the spotlight of having himself exposed as my boyfriend, slowly ate away at him. He was hounded constantly by the press, wanting to get an exclusive interview with him.

Granted, his restaurant flourished with the new interest in his private life, but at what cost? And nothing could prepare him for the onslaught of the hate and negativity that he received at the hands of my fans, most of whom had supported my relationship with Bogum. It became so bad that Jin had to finally delete all of his private sns accounts.

There were a few fans who supported me and my relationship with Jin but the majority of hate he received outweighed even that. But he really fell apart the day a sasaeng caught up with him.

He was just locking up his restaurant and by some error on my part and our friends, Jin found himself alone. She accosted him and spewed hate at him. She threw raw eggs on him and even took out a weapon to threaten Jin with. By some stroke of luck, Namjoon had returned since he had forgotten his keys and found Jin in a state of horror. The girl had tried to run off but Namjoon has tackled her and found the gun to be a fake. She was arrested but the incident served to seal the fate on our relationship. Jin couldn't take anymore of it and left me. He went into hiding and I didn't see him for a week.

I was suffering too but I tried to remain strong for him. When he ran away, it pained my heart but I knew I needed to give him time for all this to blow over. But what I didn't expect was for him to return, only to tell me that he had had enough. He had called it quits with me.

"I can't do this anymore Taehyung. I've tried, believe me, I really tried but I can't. I'm not strong enough for the world you live in. I'm a simple person Tae. I told you before this too. Whatever I am, my whole world, revolves around my quiet life that I've created with my friends and my work. This, this life that you lead, it's not me and I'm not strong enough to deal with it. Bogum was right, he really was the best for you. I came in the way of the two of you and ruined everything."

"Jinnie no! Please don't do this. I love you Jinnie! You mean everything to me. Please Jinnie, don't break us up." I was in tears for the second time in my life, only for my Jin.

He cried and held me close before he left me standing there alone with my grief in his apartment. He took a month long absence from everything, leaving the restaurant in the capable hand of Namjoon and Yoongi. He didn't tell anyone where he was going and he refused for anyone to accompany him.

Namjoon said he thought Jin had gone to be with his mum in the States but he wasn't sure. He had spoken to him intermittently but had never alluded to where he was. He needed time to get back his bearings. I guess I should have expected this. It was the price I had to pay for fame. I lost the one true thing in my life and I was never going to get him back.

The following week I spoke to Bang Sir and he allowed me some much needed leave time. I used it to go back home. I needed to get back to my roots for a while. Being out in nature and spending time tending the earth at our strawberry farm, helped to heal my broken heart. I found a semblance of peace and tranquility that I had been denying myself for a long while.

I returned after a month, and immediately met up with Jungkook. The trial was about to begin and I knew it would take a toll on Jin yet again. Even if he didn't seek me out, I would still be there for him.

"Namjoon says that Jin is back at the restaurant. Do you want to swing by and go see him."

I sighed heavily. "I do but I won't. I won't put him through any more suffering than what he's about to face. I never realised before how much my career and my fame, would affect him. I took him for granted Kook. I can't do that to him anymore. I love him too much."

"Even after everything? You still holding a torch for him?"

I scoffed slightly. "Maybe not holding a torch but I guess, I'd be fighting a losing battle if I tried to impose myself on his life anymore. I could never love another like how I love my Jinnie but I know he's given up on us and I love him enough to respect his decisions."

Jungkook smirked at me. "You're really not going to fight for him Tae? I would have thought you would never let go of him. I've known you my whole life Tae and I never thought you'd be a quitter. If it were me, I'd fight tooth and nail for my Joonie."

"It's easy to say that when you're not in the position I'm in Kook and I pray that you never find yourself in it. I caused this to happen to Jin. I was selfish. I had a boyfriend yet I pursued Jin. If I had done things the right way from the beginning, he would never have had to endure the things he went through. Seomi too, wouldn't have went through the horror that she didn't deserve. I'm the criminal in all this! He deserves peace and I'm going to let him have it."

I left for the studio then and absorbed myself into my work. I needed a distraction for a while and work was the best form of one. I missed my Jinnie terribly and most nights I sat outside on my balcony, sipping on a drink and watched the stars. They reminded me of my baby, my love. The twinkling of his eyes and his perfect smile, his rosy red cheeks and cute ears that burned red when he felt shy. His crazy laugh and his quick wit and sense of humour. He was a precious gem and I couldn't taint his life anymore with mine. But I would never stop loving him. He would always be my Jinnie, the greatest love of my life...

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