Fighting for love - Severus Snape fanfiction (BOOK TWO of A Magical Muggle)

Chapter 20

Ana felt her entire body shaking with fear. Fearing the outcome of that conversation, it was as if something inside of her warned her it was wiser to fear it. Her previous encounter with Johnny haunted her every hour of her day, but she decided she couldn't allow it to happen again. There was no reason that could justify his behavior. That day, Ana was determined to clear things up with him, in one last attempt to understand what happened and why Johnny was acting that way. She was scared not only of the conversation itself but of Severus' reaction once she told him what had been happening.

This time, she would not freeze. She knew that. 

No matter what Johnny might do, she would act immediately. To protect herself.

She fought Voldemort. Nothing else could scare her anymore.

Still, the restlessness she felt was not good. The cold sensation at the bottom of her stomach. The beeping sound inside her head that looked like an alarm.

Knocking on Johnny's door, Ana took a deep breath as she heard steps inside. She dreaded that moment and, for a fraction of a second, she considered turning around and running. Facing these kind of problems is never an easy thing to do, but she stopped herself from such thoughts.

When Johnny opened the door, he had his hair all messed up, but the annoyed look he had turned into an amused and dangerous one.

"Ana, what do I owe your visit?" He tried to sound neutral, but Ana could see through his behavior he was mocking.

"You know very well why I'm here. We need to talk. And stop that facade, I know you're not the Johnny I knew, not anymore. If you even try anything, I won't hesitate on using my powers against you. Be warned," Johnny straightened up and nodded his head, turning his expression into a more serious one. "Now, will you tell me what the fuck is wrong with you?"

Johnny lowered his head and stepped aside, gesturing at Ana to enter.

Reluctant, Ana obliged.

"Can I get you anything? Coffee, tea?" 

"Just water, please," Ana said, not taking her eyes off him.

He handed her a cup of fresh water and stared at her, as if he was thinking what to say or what to do.

"You changed, Johnny. And what you did to me the last time we were in the laboratory together was fucked up. I haven't pressed charges, but I will, unless you tell me what's wrong."

Johnny sighed and sat at the edge of his kitchen table, his eyes glued to the floor. He avoided eye contact.

"I'm sorry, Ana. I can't control myself anymore."

"What do you mean?" Ana asked in a worried tone.

"I -- I love you."

She blinked several times in utter silence.

"I fell in love with you and I am completely obsessed with you. I can't spend a day without thinking about you. And that's why my life had turned upside down."

"Johnny, I -- I'm sorry. Did I do something to make you think about me that way? I - I ... Your my friend... You know I d --"

"I know. I know. It's so hard to be around you..." He looked at her, and she noticed a gleam that looked like when you light up gasoline. "All I want to do is touch you." He approached her slowly, looking at her eyes, at her neck, then at her eyes again. "I did everything to make you look at me differently. I failed."