Forever

Nineteen

"Camille Anderson" The nurse calls. Derek grabs my hand intertwining our fingers. We follow the nurse to the room. My nerves are bouncing off the walls, I guess Derek notices because he starts rubbing my hand gently with his thumb. I've already had my exam, so this is just the consultation. The nurse opens the door revealing my doctor.

"Ah, Camille please come sit down" We make our way to the seats across from her desk. Derek continues to hold my hand providing me with small comfort.

"Is this your husband" She questions. I chuckle.

"Not yet" He clarifies. I smile at him softly.

"Well let's get straight down to it. No STDs first and foremost, there were pretty alarming tears making me sense vaginal trauma, there were also two breaks of your pelvic bone that have healed nicely" She says. Derek's grip on my hand tightens.

"I uh I was raped when I was 17," I say. The doctor nods slowly, taking down some notes.

"If anything I'm saying is too difficult please stop me" She assures. I nod giving her a small smile.

"Now, before you were raped were you a virgin" She questions. Derek shifts in his seat uncomfortable, I rub his hand trying to calm him.

"I- Uh we had only had sex one time before it happened," I say. "It was violent which probably caused all the injuries, at least three men," I admit. She takes notes carefully, not to showing any emotion.

"She couldn't walk for a month and a half. She bled profusely during that time." Derek says. I look over to see the tears in his eyes.

"How long until you became active again"

"About two years," I say apprehensively. Derek nods slowly confirming.

"Was the second break from the miscarriage?" she asks. I suck in a sharp breath. "Take your time or stop me"

"Yes, I uh, I uh was beat which caused me to lose the baby" I wipe a few tears that fall down my cheek. She passes me the tissue box and I mumble a thank you.

"Camille I am very sorry for your loss. I admire your strength in all you have had to endure. Due to these scans, it is possible for you to carry a baby to full term, however, vaginal birth will be a risky option due to the two breaks of your pelvic bone. As I said carrying a baby is possible but it is risky. If having children is something you want I will continue to work with you to figure out the best options for you" I sigh. Derek leans into me kissing me on the cheek. Tears leak from my eyes as my hands shake.

"Oh okay," I say, shakily. Derek moves his chair closer to mine pulling me into him. I cry on his shoulder as he massages my back.

"This may not be the best news, but it's still good," He says kissing my hair. I pull away from him facing the doctor.

"What are my options,"

"Well In vitro fertilization is always an option but it tends to get pricey"

"I can pay for it," Derek interjects. "Whatever you want Camille we'll do it." I smile lightly.

"Derek, can you give us a minute?" He stares at me confused. I give him a reassuring nod and he makes his way out of the office.

"What are my odds," I ask once I hear the door close.

"They aren't the best," I suck in a sharp breath.

"You can go the traditional route or we can try IVF, intrauterine insemination, there are even a few surgeries we could try. Either way, it will be a high-risk pregnancy. There is also surrogacy and adoption." She reaches out to grasp my hand. "Camille you have options and if you want children I will try my best to give them to you"

"Two girls and a boy," I say. She smiles softly.

"Not too many boys" I shake my head laughing softly. She pats my hand before pulling away. She reaches into her drawer and pulls out some pamphlets. I take them, giving her a light smile. I make my way to the door with her behind me.

"Thank you Dr. Williams" I turn around to hug her, she seems surprised by my sudden embrace but hugs me back. I open the door finding Derek pacing the hall. He looks up at us smiling lightly, I take his hand and we make our way out of the practice. Derek's phone rings in his pocket making him groan. He pulls it out and I see Rhett's name displayed on the screen.

"What?" He says. I slap him lightly for his rudeness.

"No way, yeah, yeah, we will see if we can make it" He hangs up the phone.

"Mya had the baby." I suck in a breath smiling to try and hide my panic. My eyes begin to water causing me to look away. "We don't have to go see them if you don't want to"

"No let's go I'm okay" He kisses my cheek before opening the passenger door for me.

...

We walk into the hospital hand in hand, the clean scent overwhelms my nostrils. We knock lightly on the door before walking in. Mya looks exhausted, she stares at Rhett with a huge grin as he holds their baby girl in his huge arms. They look to us smiling, as Derek's grip on my hand tightens. I let go of his hand walking over to Mya kissing her cheeks. Rhett comes closer showing me their baby. I hold her little hand smiling at her rosy cheeks.

"What's her name?" I coo.

"Amelia Calvetti," Mya says proudly. I feel a tear slide down my cheek. Rhett hands her to me and I hold her mesmerized.

"Hi Amelia, this is auntie Camille." She squirms in my arms slightly, her lips turning up to give me a small smile. "Derek looks, she's smiling at me" Derek comes to stand beside me wrapping his arm around my waist. He kisses the side of my head.

"She's so beautiful," He says. I hum rocking her in my arms.

"You guys look good with a baby," Mya says playfully. My body stiffens but I play it off giving a small laugh. I look up at Derek seeing the tears in his eyes, I give him a small reassuring smile.

"It's okay" I whisper. He smiles back, turning to focus his gaze on Amelia.