Deep Cuts Always Scar

Chapter 10

I shot up and looked around franticly. I was in my room. With a groan I flopped back onto the bed. I heard someone let out a relieved sigh and I shot back up, looking to where it came from. Gordon, Bell and Austin sat there, relief all over their faces. Gordon reached over and gripped my hand. "Thank god you're alright," he breathed in relief.

"Oh My Gosh," I said flinging my legs over the side of the bed and stood up, flinging my arms over Bell. "You're alright," I breathed.

I pulled away and looked at Bell who looked confused.

I changed my gaze over to Gordon who wore the same facial expression. "Where did they take her? Who were they? What did they want?" I asked in a rush.

"Honey," he said, "What are you talking about?"

"But I saw..." I looked back at her, "Wait, you hair isn't brown," I stated confused.

"No?" she answered sharing a worried glance with the other two.

I pulled away and furrowed my brows. "What's wrong, B?" Gordon asked standing up in front of me.

"Umm... Nothing," I mumbled, concentrating on my thoughts. Who was in my pictures? When will it happen?

He sighed,"Alright, get some rest, it's night. We'll talk later." He kissed my forehead and exited after grabbing Bell's hand. I sighed and sat cross legged on the bed with my head only hands. The bed dipped and an arm went around my shoulder. When I felt sparks I shrugged it off but then he gripped my chin and guided it up to look at him. Tingles erupted more violently and traveled through my body from my chin. "Are you alright?" Austin asked, searching my eyes. I shook my head free and pushed myself off the bed. "Don't ask if you don't care."

He stood up to and stood in front of me. "But I do care."

I rolled my eyes, ignoring the strong tug I felt for him as I stepped back.

He studied my face before saying,"You know what Josh said about the reason you didn't eat? Is that true?"

I froze. I wanted so badly to lie but my wolf wouldn't let me. I stayed silent.

He sighed and looked at me pained.

"I was a immature jerk. But that was two years ago. Can't you just forget that?"

I laughed, humorlessly. "No I can't. You don't get to belittle this, Austin. I had to live with every single insult you said to me everyday. And then to find out you were my mate, just the icing on the cake. You have no idea what I've been through, but you should because you should've been there, along side me as a mate."

"But as you've said, I'm your mate. We're ment to be together," he whispered. My wolf whimpered in agreement, begging me to agree but I reminded her of what he did and she quickly changed sides.

I scoffed, "That ment little to you then and that means little to me now."

He winced like I slapped him, but I continued,

"You know, what I want to know is why do you want me? Is it because I'm no longer 15 kilos to heavy? Or is it because I'm no longer the little girl you stomped over? Or is it that I'm some kind of special wolf that you could possibly use?" A tear fell from my eye but I quickly swiped it away. His eyes showed nothing but agony.

"No," he said, his voice thick with emotion, "I want you because when you left I finally realized how much you ment to me. Because even then you were the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. Because I know that I could never be with anyone but you."

I felt myself soften at his words. No, no I won't let him in. I walked past him and he grabbed my wrist, setting sparklers alight. I shook it unwillingly free and said, "You should've worked that out earlier because I've been through to much because of you." I turned around and walked out. As soon as I was down the hallway I felt empty. Like part of me was still back there, with him. I shook it off and walked down to Gordon's and Josh's bedroom. I could hear all my guys there. I had to tell them about my vision.