- several assholes screaming around me and just generally being obnoxious
- a stupid little bruise on my hand that i'm not even sure how i got it.
- i'm at school
- my ankles and knees are hurting like a bitch. Stupid fucking family traits.
- i have a headache.
- i have a project due tomorrow.
- my dad is in a sour mood
- it's hot as hell in here
- i can't work on my story or message my friends.
- my shower isn't usable; i have to use my dad's, restricting how long i can just stand in there
- i can't listen to music.
- my hoodie wasn't dry this morning, so i can't wear it.
- i only have a few more minutes in this class, so i dont have time to update my story.
- i have to take gym next semester.
- it's almost Christmas.
- everyone is playing no good music; all annoying as fuck carols.
- my friend has a crush on me, and i on her, but she's too oblivious to see it, and too shy to ask me out.
- cafeteria food sucks satan's ballsack
- i got caught making the "going down" motion to my friend (female) and she did it back. (just joking around) we were caught by a total stranger. That didn't get it at first. Then he thought we were fucking each other or some shit.
- i left this class to use the bathroom, and was singing "Boney the Snowman" (frosty, but dirtier) at the top of my lungs. as i closed the door, i sang "was a really fucked (up guy)" everyone stared at me. i quickly corrected to fudged and left the room. i got so many "i heard that" looks as i walked back in.
- i forgot to take my dog to pee this morning.
- i have what i assume is a spider bite on my foot, and it may have been venomous judging by how it is slowly growing, constantly itches, and is very red (legit blood color) even though im not bleeding. it also hurts something awful and looks like i have a small, end of a cigarette sized chunk of flesh missing from my left foot.
- i have Noxema in my hair from where i was washing my face this morning.
- my Gramma got lost more than once taking us to school this morning.
- my eyes are really dry and sting.
- i need to cut. Haven't since my dad saw, and now i desperately want to.
- i always have an "escape plan" a way out. I don't right now. Used to be pills, then guns, then cutting, then a noose. all of those have horrible consequences. like staining the carpet or scarring my step sis for life, since two people would have done that in her family now. And she'd definitely be the one to find me. Or simply not working, like the pills thing. It's too unreliable. i MAY be able to drown myslef, but it'd be hard. I just dunno.
