Wolf Break (Argon pack Book 9)

Part 14

Luna

I knew something was wrong, by now I knew to trust my gut that's how I had lived as long as I had. With Gary he had mood swings so bad one minute he would be kind and the next he would be trying to kill you, I always had to follow my gut and guess if he was going to be nice or not, right now was no different, something was wrong very wrong.

"come on let's get you to our room," he says taking my hand to lead me to my feet.

"what are you hiding?" I say now certain here was something.

"what are you talking about?" He says raising his eyebrows in a fake show of confusion.

"your hiding something and I am not budging one inch until you tell me what," I say crossing my arms.

"ok look I don't tell people this for a reason and I didn't tell you because I didn't want you to look at me like I had a second head or worse like I was a monster," he says and now I'm really nervous but he takes a seat next to me and speaks before I can change my mind.

"When I was young I mean really young I found my fated mate," he says and I gasp knowing something must have gone seriously wrong.

"We got pregnant on our first heat together," he says pausing again now staring down at the floor.

"it was twins, the pregnancy was hard on her she struggled through the entire thing," he says now tears forming in his eyes.

"when her pains started she wanted to have the babies at home, I agreed but I wasn't expecting exactly what happened," he says now fresh tears starting to fall.

"The first baby got stuck they said he was trying to come out with his feet first and she wasn't ready to push yet so he was just dangling there, when her waters broke they were green and they said that meant one or both of the twins had pooped before they were born and that it might make them ill." he pauses a second for a sob which causes more tears to drop causing dark droplets on his jeans.

"they said we needed the doctor, that he had to try to turn the baby vaginally, I didn't want another man going near her there." this time he balls his hands into fists on his jeans.

"they contacted a female doctor but she was too far out, the doctor begged and my mate begged for the doctor to do his job but my wolf was far too possessive and I would let them touch her." he breaks down into full-blown tears now.

"the next thing we knew there was a huge rush of blood they said it was the placenta separating, the doctor got there and started doing a c-section but my mate had lost too much blood and when they finally got the babies out they... they wouldn't cry they wouldn't breathe, she tried everything, I had to choose my mate or the babies." his face drops into his hands and he sobs huge gasps of air between each heart-crushing sob.

"None of them made it, I lost all three of them, I lost my pack, I lost my home, I wandered around for years as a rogue taking the odd job at this pack and the next I couldn't settle anywhere nothing ever felt right, I met a woman who was also pregnant with twins along that journey and I vowed to help her no matter what it took, her mates had abandoned her and she had no one and then when the time came I couldn't help her either, luckily the high Luna of the Argon pack knew the woman and managed to save her by getting her mates back but I realised after that how useless I was as a man, a wolf, I couldn't help anyone or do anything, i took on some missionary work for Alpha James at the Argon pack, we were fighting and rescuing Omegas some years back, His beta Xach was pinned down with a sniper on his chest the Alpha threatening him too coward to use the wolf resorted to human weapons, I jumped in the way, Xach had a family, 6 kids one more on the way I couldn't let him die at the hands of a coward, I pushed him away and took three bullets in total." he stands up showing me the small circular scars I hadn't noticed until now, wolves don't usually scar our healing is too good.

"silver capsule Vampire blood bullets," he says to answer my silent question my gasp is louder this time, he shouldn't be alive.

"I owe my life to the Luna of the Argon pack, she is everything as amazing as she is told to be in the books, anyway I got dismissed after and it took me a good few years to be fit for anything again, part of me wanted to die if I'm honest but when I recovered enough to have a medical ran, the full works they had to find out if there was any lasting damage, it came back everything was fully functioning except my sperm count, it was 0% I fired Blanks. That's when the Alpha told me about this place. I had a chance to help people again, to be useful, to help people who were tied to Alphas as stupid and over-protective as I had once been. I got checked between every partner and after every knot to check I was still firing blanks, that is until you, somehow you changed my entire body and made it work again, not just me here are mated wolves on this base that have tried for years and never been successful now expecting cubs and my sister wasn't even in heat but you managed to help her too, your a medical miracle and I almost fucked that up."

to say I was not expecting him to be hiding such a dark and upsetting past is an understatement I am shocked and heartbroken to hear all the trials he has been through even if most were caused by his own stupidity and even if I do sympathize with him it does not excuse his actions towards me even if he was scared that history was repeating. This week might just be the hardest thing I ever do,for him to prove his worth and me to forgive him and I am still not sure that will happen I am sure as hell not going to risk my life or my babies because of this idiotic wolf and his over protection.