BILLIE EILISH IMAGINES

one thing (2)

coraline's pov

i let out a sigh as i turned the channel, trying to find something to watch. i stopped as i saw that "the babadook" was on.

billie loves that movie.

i turned the channel again.

it's been a little over a month since i went off on her that night. since then, she hasn't even tried to contact me or come over. judging by her instagram that i checked last week, she's still dating brandon.

of course.

i felt kinda stupid for going off like i did, but at the same time, i'm glad that i finally said what i wanted to. it feel good to get it off my shoulders. it's relieving not having to always listen to her rant about how much of an asshole brandon is.

but at the same time, i miss hanging out with her. there were times where we would hang out and brandon wouldn't even get mentioned. it was just the two of us, enjoying each other's company. i especially miss the times we'd hangout before she had even met brandon.

i'd be lying if i said that i didn't still have feelings for her. i mean hell, i'm in fucking love with her.

can you blame me though? she's pretty much perfect. her laugh is absolutely adorable. her eyes are the prettiest shade of blue i've ever seen. her personality is amazing. she's gorgeous inside and out.

i let out a groan as i tried to get her out of my head.

who would've thought getting over her would be this hard?

we weren't even dating.

i feel stupid for being so hung over someone i didn't even date, but oh well... shit happens.

my brows furrowed as i heard knocking on my door.

now who in the hell..?

i sighed as i untangled myself from my blanket, getting up and walking to my front door. i unlocked it and opened it.

"billie?" i questioned.

i took in her appearance. she was in her usual baggy attire, but something was different. she seemed... more put together than the last time i saw her. she didn't have bags under her eyes from restless nights of sleep and she stood with more confidence.

also, her hair was now blue.

my favorite color.

"what are you doing here?" i asked.

"i want to apologize," she explained softly. "can i come inside?"

"no." i shook my head slightly.

she looked up at the ceiling (seeing as i lived in an apartment), mumbling a "i should've expected that."

i leaned against the doorway and stared at her expectingly.

"okay, so... before i even start, i thought i should tell you that i broke with brandon."

my eyes widened at this. "really?" i asked, though i tried to not sound to eager.

she nodded. "yeah. i finally realized how toxic he was."

fucking finally.

"i just never could bring myself to do it because i loved him... well, i thought i loved him. i realized that i loved the thought of being with him."

she sighed as she ran a hand through her hair. "i also realized that i was in love... just not with him. i was... am in love with you."

i gave her a skeptical look but still let her continue.

"i'm in love with you and of course it took you getting angry and walking out for me to realize," she rolled her eyes. "before i continue with that i just want to say i'm sorry. i really can't apologize enough. using you to just vent to and not even letting you do the same and ignoring you trying to help me was so fucking wrong of me."

"you think?" i scoffed.

"yeah... this is going to sound so fucking shitty, but i didn't even realize how badly i was treating you. i just... i don't know. all i know is that i'm sorry."

"and i know that i love you. again, it took you walking out for me to realize it, but i do. that night, i sat and reflected on everything that you had said and realized how it affected you. the longer i sat and thought, the more i realized that i loved you. i could only think about how caring you are and how you only wanted the best for me and how you always put me first instead of yourself."

"i should've done this way sooner but i kinda thought i should maybe give you time to cool off and give myself time to get my shit together. so... here i am."

i stared at her as she stared back. i've know billie for long enough to know that it's rare to apologize for shit. i know that it's sincere especially because she came out of her way to come and apologize.

i looked down at the ground, kicking at it lightly.

i really don't know how to process this all.

i mean... she shows up after over a month of not talking to me to apologize and confess her love for me.

sounds like some wattpad shit but whatever.

i looked up at her, getting lost in her eyes that i adore so much before mumbling "i accept your apology."

her eyes lit up as a small smile came across her face. "really?"

"yeah," i nodded. "and it was probably noticeable, but i'm in love with you too."

"looking back on it, it kinda was." she mumbled with a small laugh.

"but... just because i forgive you and we both love each other or whatever, doesn't mean anything," i sighed. "well it does, but i'm not going to let you hop into another relationship, if that's even what you want, right after you just got out of one. that's just gonna hurt both of us."

she nodded. "i get that. and yeah, that is what i want."

"until you're ready for another relationship, we can start hanging out again and then see where that takes us. that cool?"

she nodded once more, a smile taking her over face. "yeah, that's more than cool."

i stepped aside. "the babadook was starting a few minutes before you came over. you wanna go watch it?"

"hell yeah!" she grinned as she walked inside.

things are finally looking up and i'm getting the one thing that i wanted.

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a/n idk if anybody even still has this in their library but here's part two after three months !!!

not even gonna lie... i completely forgot about this book lmaoo

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