Leena's Heart [COMPLETED]

13.

2 days later...

Sunday | 11:03 a.m.
November 24, 2013

Leena Parker

"What? Why you looking at me like that?" I asked Gianni as I covered my stomach. She'd been giving me these creepy looks since she'd came over to my house Friday night and asked me upfront if I was pregnant. Of course I tried to deny it but she went into full detail about how I was lying and that she knew what a baby bump felt like. Her weird stares were bugging me. Well they were weird to me because she just kept smiling. She wanted to keep touching my stomach and I let her because I didn't want to raise anymore suspicion if I didn't. She seemed genuinely excited and raved about being an "aunt" when the truth was this was her siblings growing inside of me.

Truth was I guess you could say I'd been noticing the changes in my body for months but I just never wanted to see that my belly was growing slowly. I blamed it on being "bloated" when I knew....I knew that after the first time I'd had sex with Zaine unprotected that it was possible that I could be pregnant. Upon going to the hospital to not only confirm I was pregnant just to ease his mind about the results, I'd found out how far along I was and that I wasn't carrying one baby. Not two babies. But three of them. Zaine had gotten on board with one baby but I was too nervous and scared to tell him that I was having three. How could I?

"I can't believe it. I'm really gonna be an auntie. I'm so excited. I hope it's a girl. I can't wait to tell—"

She burst out laughing as I stale faced her as I sat at the edge of the bed because we'd talked about this.

"Sorry. I forgot you said you don't want anybody to know right now but girl this is burning a hole in my tongue." She said.

I did not know the first thing about carrying one baby let alone three. This was enough to make me never have sex again. No way in hell did I expect my first time getting pregnant to result in me carrying three little lives inside of me. Zaine had been calling me since yesterday trying to check in but I couldn't bring myself to answer the phone because I knew how I felt and I knew those feelings were wrong. I didn't worry about him popping up because he wasn't stupid enough to do that while Gianni was here unless he came with an excuse that had to do with her. Even then that would raise suspicions.

My growing feelings were evident in the way I acted when he came around but it was clear that he was hot and cold. One minute he was kissing me and the next he was telling me about how we shouldn't do this or that. I wasn't the one always initiating things. It was okay for him to do it but when I did it it was wrong? When I did it I'd get the same lecture over and over. That wasn't cool at all so I decided that I was going to have to stop being so anxious to answer his calls or see him. I couldn't lie like I didn't want to be hugged up with him but he wasn't mine.

"I didn't even know you had a boyfriend." Gianni said filing her nails.

"I don't."

She slowly looked up from her nails as she stopped filing.

"Soooo who's your babydaddy? I need a visual or something to see if your baby will have good genes. I cannot be the auntie of a funny looking baby. I just can't chile." She said dramatically and I gave an awkward half smile.

If she knew the truth about who the father really was I couldn't imagine how she or anyone else would react to this. What made this even worse was that I was developing strong feelings for him. Feelings I couldn't just turn on or off for this man. I was curious about if he was messing with other women but I didn't react or question him about that. I'd been wondering about him and Ivy when we were at the hotel because if they were getting back together I didn't want the babies that I was having with her ex to break her all over again. I didn't know what to do about anything. I hadn't visited my mother in rehab yet because they weren't allowing visits at the moment since she'd just checked in over a week ago.

"Listen umm...Thanksgiving is a few days away and I'm having it at my house this year since....well since my mom is in rehab. I have to make it a good one or at least try because neither of my parents will be there. My father's brothers will be there—"

"We'll be there. I'm sure daddy would love to see them. And I'm sorry about your mom. If anybody will get through this it's her."

"I know. It's just..."

"Just what?" She questioned me before she got a text message and pulled her phone out of her pocket to check it. "That's my mama. She want me to stop by the store on my way home. I should get going." She stood up.

"Okay. I understand. I enjoyed having you over this weekend. You drive safe you hear me?" I smiled and stood up to hug her. I held on a little longer than I should've because I really wanted nothing more than to be held by someone. Anyone. Gianni was younger than me but just like my best friend Amora she was always a shoulder to lean on if I needed it. I tried not to make that too often though because she was a teenager and I didn't want to put my real life adult problems on her.

"Are you okay?" She pulled back from me.

"Never better." I gave a fake smile. "Oh yeah don't forget to tell your mom about Thanksgiving dinner. I know she might have plans for y'all already but if she doesn't let her know that I'd love to have her come by here."

"Okay." Gianni smiled. "Bye little niece or nephew." She said in a baby voice as she touched my stomach and I burst out laughing when she did a silly dance.

"Bye Gianni." I shook my head.

"Bye." She laughed walking out of my bedroom.

And just like that my smile faded knowing what I knew.

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