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xhapter 36 🔫

^teaser for an upcoming story!😳👉👈 maybe in a few years or so lol, jk, promise it would be by this year!!! maybe on my birthday??

Taehyung
          My mind was spinning, I couldn't process anything the hyungs were saying to me.

         I just stared at the bracelet and admired it, "Taehyung? Are you listening?" Jin hyung said snapping me off my day dream "Oh- uh sorry what was it hyung?" I said "We're going to visit Jungkook's grave today....Yoongi talked with his father already" Jin hyung said "Pfft! I barely!" Yoongi hyung hissed making me widen my eyes, "Really?" I said then he nodded "Don't be sad okay?" Hoseok hyung said patting my shoulders "I know exactly how you feel Taehyung-ah..." Yoongi hyung said, I nodded leaning my head on Jimin's shoulders, "Your strong Taehyungie....I know you can do this" Jimin said making me smile a bit.

               I stared at the bracelet again, admiring it, it looked so pretty.

               I sighed again as I could not pick an outfir to wear, "Taehyungie?" I jumped a little as I heard Jimin's voice, "You scared me..." I mumbled "Sorry...but are you done, wait I should not be asking that, you do not look done at all" He said looking at me up and down, I was just wearing Jungkook's shirt, I often borrow his clothes nowadays so I always  come to his room. I missed his smell. I missed him.

               Jimin helped me picked out an outfit and I just wore, pouting as Jungkook's scent was not there.

               While we were in the car I stared off to the window, it was a bit rainy today, so droplets of raindrops fell on the windows.

               I put on my earbuds, wanting to distract myself, humming to the tune of the song playing. I bit my lip as the next song was 'Purpose', my heart clenched as it was the last thing I heard from Jungkook.

                I breathed heavily because I do not want to cry in front of my hyungs. Dark thought are creeping through my mind again as I recall what had happened.

              
No, I'm not useless

Yes you are

No, I'm stronger than this

No you are not! I know better than anyone!

It wasn't my fault

Don't play the victim! He died because of YOU

No....he doesn't want me to think that

Oh stop trying to be the victim, don't you see? Your being a burden!

I am?

Ofcourse you are!

Ofcourse I am

Your so pathetic

I am so pathetic

            I am so pathetic, tears fell down my eyes as I looked to the window more, trying to avoid them seeing my face, your weak, pathetic, and useless, stop trying to play the victim here Kim Taehyung.

Jimin
             We were paying our respects to Jungkook when this certain little dumb dumb of a bitch came.
   
             "Did Mr. Min actually let him come? Tsk! HE was the reason Jungkook died!" She hissed glaring at Taehyung "Says the one who literally sold him off!" I snarled glaring back at her "Sold him off? Oh please! Stop playing victim Kim! I bet even you know it's your fault!" Yura said "I was talking to yo-" "Yura atleast pay respect to my brother...you already cause enough damage as it is, just get the fuck off my sight!" Yoongi hyung cutted me off, she huffed then left.

           I looked at Taehyung he was looking down, Jin hyung immediately hygged him, and started whisphering things.

           "Namjoon....I would really kill her myself if you don't send threats!" Yoongi hyung growled "Alright...I'll do it first thing we get home" He answered "It's getting dark" I mumbled "Let's go before the rain pours harder" Hoseok hyung said. We said our goodbye's to Jungkook as we headed to the car.

Taehyung
             While in the car ride, we got a little hungry so we decided to stop for a while.

             We were deciding on what food to order, and I couldn't help but laugh a little, a little, when Namjoon hyung and Jin hyung were fighting over what food to order.

             "I want meat!" Namjoon hyung whined "I want lobster!" Jin hyung argued "Meat!" Joonie hyung said "Shrimp! Lobster!" Jin hyung said poiting the fork at Joonie hyung "But Jinnie...." Namjoon hyung pouted "I don't get how you two are supposed to be the parent figure honestly.." Yoongi hyung mumbled quietly but Jin hyung heard it still, making him get a smack in the head, "Joonie we have meat all the time" Jin hyung said pouting, I cringed, "Fine...I guess" Joonie hyung said in defeat making Jin hyung cheer along with Hoseok hyung.

          As we were eating things felt a bit empty. It's the first time I joined them in the table, and I now noticed it looks incomplete.

            There was no Jungkook annoying you out of the blue, no arrogant remarks on how he is the favorite child and how he can do almost everything, I sighed and bit my lip.

            I barely finished the food and just gazed outside the window. An ice cream parlor caught my eye as I stared at it.

            I decided to go there now since we'll probably head back home later on, "Hyung....I'll go to that ice cream place....I'll be back quick" I said "Okay....look at the road when your crossing!" Jin hyung said as he munched on his food Wha? No fair! I want some too!" Jimin said, standing up "Just follow him later after you finished eating" Yoongi hyung said, pulling him back down.

           I rushed to the ice cream shop and went inside, I scan the flavors one by one, my hand stopped infront of one flavor, Cookies N' Cream;

            I went to the cashier tapping my feet, waiting for a person to take my order, "Hello! Sorry for the inconvinience, may I take your order?" I look at him in shock, Jungkook?! I shook my head and rubbed my eyes, oh, I was just mistaken, "Oh...uh...one cookie and cream please" I said.

            I paid for the Ice cream as I cupped it into my hands, heading out. I let out a deep breath and looked up to the sky, "I'm even seeing your face on other people now Kookie..." I mumbled.

             As I was crossing the road, too focused on the thoughts of Jungkook, I didn't hear nor see the car heading towards me, I looked at it in shock when it was a few feet away from me, but I just stood there, something in me told me I deserve this so I just stayed there.

             I see Jimin on the other side, wide eyed, he came to run after me but it was a bit too late. I felt impact and my body fell. All the sounds were blocked and my eyes slowly closed.

Note 🔫
haihai!
so ya'll r probably mad
rn, sorry!
but i rlly promise there r
some quality
fluff in chapter 40 or smtn!
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