Always In My Head

Chapter 7

Time was an unstoppable force for Sofie. As time marched on, the threat of the First Order increased and her concern for Lana did as well.

Sofie and Leia faced endless frustration trying to convince the New Republic that the First Order was dangerous. Every misstep from them was swept under the rug in the name of peace.

The base on D'Qar was secure and almost completely hidden from plain view, but Sofie still had nightmares about Lana. It felt like the First Order could take her away at any moment. She wanted to focus on training herself and Lana more, but experienced extreme anxiety when separated from Lana.

Leia tried to help Sofie by watching her occasionally, but Sofie knew that this was difficult for her to do in addition to her General duties.

It was easy to keep Lana ins ight when she was crawling, but once she could fully walk, it was a struggle to keep an eye on her.

At three-years-old, Lana could walk, and she could walk far if you didn't watch her.

Sofie asked Leia one day if she or any other of the fighters had time to watch Lana so that she could finally create another lightsaber for herself. The previous one that she had made while at the Jedi Academy was confiscated by Kylo Ren while she was captive.

She always felt guilty asking others to help her but reassured herself that she would make it up to them by raising Lana to also fight for the Resistance.

Once Leia found a bit of downtime she agreed to watch Lana. Sofie was ecstatic at the thought of finally having another personal lightsaber. Leia let her borrow her personal ship for her errand to the outposts.

Everything was set and before Sofie set off, she said goodbye to Leia and Lana.

"You're going to be good for Nana while I'm gone, right Lana?" Sofie said to Lana, giving her a hug and kiss before leaving. Lana was teary-eyed and hated goodbyes, like any other toddler.

"Don't worry!" Sofie wiped Lana's tears from her face. "I'll be back soon, and once you see what I got, you'll be so excited!"

The tears on Lana's face were replaced by new ones as Sofie entered the ship, they waved goodbye from afar.

Once Lana was out of sight, Sofie was relieved to have the opportunity to also let tears on her face form. She wanted to be a proper role-model for Lana, but didn't want to show her how much leaving her, even for a half-day, caused her immense anxiety.

Sofie had been putting off her errand for too long, three years of borrowing lightsabers or using other devices left an itch to have your own.

The ship lifted up from D'Qar slowly and Sofie was finally off. Her plan was to visit the Black Spire Outpost on Batuu, Leia assured her it was a good spot because they currently had a Resistance base set up, and she had seen Kyber crystals for sale in the outpost.

This made Sofie calmer, if something happened on D'Qar, she could easily run to the base, but she still had time to take her time and shop.

Sofie landed at the docking bay and wasted no time getting out and finding the outpost. Once she could see the planet, she was shocked by how much greenery covered the actual outpost itself.

The shops were laid close together, giving the area a cozy feeling. It felt like Sofie could walk forever among the various merchants inside and outside.

Admittedly, she found herself getting distracted by all the goods they were offering, and couldn't resist looking at some of the clothes being sold. Sofie had a few outfits left from the Jedi Academy, but she mainly used Leia and the other fighter's graciousness to let her borrow clothes while at the Resistance base.