Always In My Head

Chapter 9

Warning! A bit of smut, but fitting I think for our situation. We are also going to start diverging from Canon! Always interested to hear your comments/critiques, I am apt to improve if possible c:

Before they stepped onto the main ship, Ben turned to her and held out his hand.

"Give me your weapons and chronometer." He said with seriousness. Sofie almost refused. But she acknowledged the risk Ren would be taking with her.

She grabbed her lightsaber and looked at it with sad eyes.

"I barely got another personal lightsaber to replace the one you took from me and now you're taking it again?" Sofie pouted.

She handed him both items and he hid them under his arm. Ben put his helmet on and they walked out together onto the ship.

Sofie rode in silence with Ben to Supremacy. She was nervous and endless questions ran through her mind.

Will Leia be disappointed in me? Will anyone recognize me? Is it a trap? What if Lana's not there? Can I really call Ben Ren the whole time?

Despite her nervousness, she kept a straight face. She needed to appear unwavering.

It was hard to call him Ren when she could see hints of the Ben she knew.

The shuttle docked Supremacy. Sofie hid her face under the cloak.

The sights made Sofie tense up. It felt strange to be in an environment that she would have to avoid under normal circumstances..

She gulped as the reality hit her. She was a spy now, but with no way to communicate with her actual allegiance.

Ren led them to his quarters and told Sofie to wait outside. He went in and closed the doors behind him.

Sofie looked around the ship. She wondered if she looked like a suspicious figure.

Inside, Ren dismissed the stormtroopers assigned to Lana.

"You were taking too long to find a caretaker, so I found one myself. She will be taking care of her now, you are relieved of your duties," He told them. Ren swore he heard one of them sigh in relief.

The stormtroopers left the room. Sofie nodded to them as they passed by her. She peeked into the room and Ren waved her on. He took off his helmet.

Upon entering the room, her eyes caught Lana sitting on the gigantic bed. Sofie closed the door behind her and Lana let out an exclamation.

"Mommy!" She recognized her mother instantly. Sofie rushed over to pick her up and she held her tightly in her arms.

Sofie sat on the bed and looked at Lana, making sure she was real.

"Are you okay? Did they do anything to you?" Sofie asked Lana, aware that Ren was standing a few feet away.

Lana shook her head and explained how the stormtroopers would play with her to the best of her ability. Sofie was relieved that they hadn't brainwashed her yet.

"Sofie," Ren started, "I'm moving both of you somewhere else. I want my meditation room back."

"Moving us to where?" Sofie asked, nervous to be away from Ren.

"Nearby. This area has all the quarters of high-ranking officers. You will be just across the hallway." Ren said. Sofie breathed a sigh of relief.

"Are you sure we won't cause suspicion?" Sofie asked him. " I'm not as recognizable as Leia, but I know that I stick out."

"Just mind your own business. You have one job and you don't need to move around unnecessarily." Ren told her. Sofie bit the inside of her lip.

Lana and Sofie moved to their new temporary home. It was similar to Ren's and had a main room, bathroom, and a spare room.