My Life

kChapter 5

House at the top
River POV

Ever since Ashley told Kyle I self harmed he's been trying to get me to wear short sleeved shirts so he can see my cuts

I walked downstairs wearing another sweatshirt

"Why are you wearing a sweatshirt?" Kyle asked me

I just ignored him and kept going on with my business

"River..." Kyle said

I rolled my sleeves up so he could see my arms

"There Kyle, you fucking happy, there you go us for what ta wanted now leave me the fuck alone Kyle" I said to him

He looked at my arms and didn't say anything

"We will talk about this later" he told me

"Were not talking about shit Ky" I said walking back up to my room

I started to cry

I slid down and sat with my back against the wall in my room

I started having trouble breathing because I was having an anxiety attack

I usually got one at least once a day

I finally calmed down and went back down stairs

I sat down on the couch opposite Kyle

He looked at the tv and then at me

"Why'd you start doing it?" He asked quietly

"To cope with the pain of losing them" I told him

He sighed

"I know you think I'm a freak" I said quietly

He shook his head and rolled his sleeve up revealing old scars

"You think I don't know what you're going through but trust me I started cutting way before mom and dad died, I know what it feels like to wonder if everything would be better if I was dead or how it's easier to take a blade to your wrist then it is to talk about your problems with someone, because the blade can't judge you but people do, it's okay I get it, I'm not gonna sit here and make you tell me why you do it, I'm not gonna tell you that you need to stop, but I am gonna tell you that no matter what I am here for you and I love you more than anything in this world and your my life, I don't wanna see you hurting, I'm always here for you, and I always will be" he said

I has tears in my eyes and I went over say on his lap and hugged him

I put my head on his chest and fell asleep