THE LAST DIARY

Day 25

DAY 25

Dear diary,

We went dress searching today and I got myself an orange dress.

Well I drew it for you.

I haven't shown BaoGem the dress yet. I will wear it on the day of the ball.

 Today was exhausting. Walking about 20km is horrible. It's exhausting. My legs are hurting. I haven't had a shower since we arrived here as there isn't sufficient water for everyone. I will go have a shower in the next building tomorrow.

I have decided of using the Ouija board tonight. How hard can it be? I really wanna talk to mum and dad. Coming back here is bringing back a lot of memories. I thought I was ready to be with the memories of my parents but it turns out that I am not. I will need some candles and the Ouija board in Kungawo's bag. Well I will have to borrow it from him when he is asleep.

I tried to call mum and dad but it turns out that it is not easy to use the board. I couldn't even feel their presence like I could feel Jacobus's. 

I hate what is happening to me. I had never asked for this to happen. I never wanted it to happen. Now that I can feel what I am doing without knowing is horrible. I can't be the one. I CANT.

Yours,Aria