5SOS Pref and Imagines

He Talks Bad About You Behind Your Back

Michael:

The boys came over today, so I  decided that I'd let them have guy time, so I stayed in mine and Michael's room. As the boys were talking I could hear someone ask Michael if he should ask me to go to the carnival with them. I put my ear on the wall and listened to the conversation.

   "I don't know man, she's so awkward. Socially. It's so annoying. Like she's just embarassing herself and I."                  

Michael's words shattered my heart. I couldn't believe why he would say that. Just as Mike said that, Ashton replied with,

   "She could  just be shy. Plus, she's your girlfriend,  and you shouldn't talk about her like that."

Yeah, he shouldn't.  After about a good 10 minutes, I went downstairs where the boys were. They were playing a board game. I grabbed my jacket and was about to leave until Calum asked,

   "Hey, wanna play with us?"

   "Oh no, I'm fine. I wouldn't wanna embarass Michael since you know,  I'm socially awkward. "

   Michael's eyes widened.

"Baby, I didn't mean anything I said!" And with that, I left Michael and the house.

Ashton:

Ashton was downstairs playing FIFA, as usual. I stayed in our bedroom and layed down with 'The Fault in our Stars' in my hand. I was about to read until I forgot my glasses. I checked the drawers but had no luck in finding it, but instead finding Ash's journal. I know I'm not supposed to read it, but I was curious. I put the journal on the bed and kept searching for my glasses. I walked to my closet and dug through my bag.

" Aha!" I shouted in excitement with the glasses in my hand.

I put it on and climbed into bed and grabbed the journal. I skipped through pages until I found this one page about me. It was one of his recent pages, I could tell as it was dated the 2 days before today. I kept reading on. I was shocked on what I read. Ashton's journal said, & I quote:

"I love (Y/N) but she's so depressing. I try to help her but she's always crying. I hate it.  It's annoying. I feel  like I'm losing interest in her.... probably. Like, can't she smile for at least five seconds?!? Sometimes, I feel like I should just leave her because everyday, she's sad. Even when I try to make her happy. I don't know anymore..."

I started tearing up. Why would he say this about me?!? Is this what he thinks? That depressed people can become happy in a snap? Is that all he thinks of me? A depressed girlfriend who doesn't try to be happy? I try. I TRY so hard to fit in. To be happy. To be like other people. But I can't.... He knows I'm insecure about everything. I'm afraid to admit it, but I'm fragile. Anyone could hurt me without a move of a finger..

"Hey bab- oh my god, give me that!"  he grabbed the journal and looked at me with a worried face.
"What did you read?"

"Oh I don't know, maybe a jerk's rant about me. How could you say that, Ash?"

I grabbed something near me and threw it at him.

"YOU KNOW, ASHTON. I'M DONE WITH YOU! GET OUT! ASHTON IRWIN, GET OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW! GET OUT NOW! GET OUT... Get out.."

I started bursting in tears. That was the day Ashton walked out of my life...out of my depressing life.

Luke: (his POV)
"(Y/N) is SO clingy. Like I wanted some alone time but she always wants to cuddle or like go somewhere. I love her and stuff but she's just sometimes gets on my nerves. She needs to stop sometimes and give me some time alone."

I told the boys what I felt about (Y/N). I kinda was harsh about it but it's true!

"You should tell her how you feel" Ashton suggested

Michael's eyes widened and shook his head. He then pointed to the stairs where (Y/N) stood. I was shocked.

Michael then shouted,  "SHE ALREADY HAS, IDIOT!"

She grabbed her coat and jacket and left the house. I ran after her.

"Wait!"

"What do YOU want? Actually, don't answer that question."

"Wait, don't leave, baby. I DIDN'T MEAN ANYTHING I SAID.  I WAS JUST STUPID. IT JUST CAME OUT OF MY MOUTH. PLEASE FORGIVE ME!"

"You said you wanted alone time, Luke. So I'll do you a favor and give you a break"

Calum:
"(Y/N) is getting a little chubby lately.  Would it kill her for her to exercise!?"

It's been 3 days since Cal said that. I'm still shocked that he said that. Everyday now,  I go to the gym. For a long time each day. Long enough that Calum would be sleeping by the time I got home. But today was different. When I got home from the gym, I heard Cal talk

"Hey you're back! Where have you been?? I've barely seen this week!"

"Oh, you know the gym. Since I'm starting to get a little CHUBBY"

I just glared at him and he facepalmed himself. He wrapped his arms around me and kept repeating sorry. But I didn't feel like forgiving him...yet. He knows that I was insecure about my body.  He knows that I hate everything about my body. And for the rest of the night, I ignored him.