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The shine of transparency

Hello, my name is Carlos, I am 16 years old and I have something to tell you, an experience that perhaps will change the way of thinking of some people but perhaps also change the way of living of some.
I am a somewhat silly, distracted or perhaps harmless child, I think it is normal for children, but compared to the rest it should be a little less harmless, this whole situation in my life would not mean a problem for my life until I turned the eight years; It all started because of my classmates, in one way or another they were more agile than me in different ways, this began to cause the boys to start bulling me, a problem which did not mean harm to me, since the Being something unfair did not reduce my IQ and I was aware that bulling was part of immature so that it did not affect me as such. I had a best friend whom I loved very much since he was the only one who paid me some attention, but my injustice did not let me realize that this boy was only using me since he always gave me orders and treated me like his pet , but my heart was only satisfied with a little attention, no matter how he treated me; over time "my best friend" moved to the city so he necessarily changed schools and well I was totally alone although this did not last for a long time (...) The rest of my classmates were adapted to See how "my best friend" treated me and for that reason the rest of the world thought that I was born to serve them, that I was a pet for everyone and that my way of being and expressing myself was not important, I did not even have the right to be loved by nobody because I was less than everyone. This personality and this way of seeing me persecuted me for a long time until my adolescence, which in one way or another my way of being somewhat submissive and cavisbaja increased the level of complexity of the matter and many more people used me and treated me as if I were slag or trash; My teachers noticed the situation and because of that they spoke with me to try to make me understand that I should not allow them to treat me in such a way, but my mind and my way of being were adapted to this situation and I did not understand the damage that all this in the long term I leave in my personality as such. By the time I was 14 years old, my mind was changing and I wasn't thirsty in the same way and I started to become someone more rebellious, but people realized very little about this and, as expected, I began to have problems with some colleagues.
One way or another no one messed with me anymore, I was just ignored by everyone and this also became bulling since I did not exist for absolutely anyone and loneliness hurts a lot (...) I have already grown up and I am 15 years old, nobody pays attention to me yet but I have changed and in reality this is no longer my Priority, currently I want to improve myself intellectually and dedicate time to my passion that is learning to play the piano, the fact that people do not speak to me or relate to me does not mean that they do not speak ill of me and make fun of some discretion, but this is not a problem since I am happy at this moment satisfying my own needs, in this way my mind will only consent to my goal in life, that is, to be happy.
It is very important that each one of us knows the importance of valuing our own efforts, even if nobody does it, because that is the best way to show everyone how capable we are of being great without the help of anyone, that is, the world of a somehow or other someday I will have to recognize your courage and accept you as you are because if you are always yourself you will always be indispensable. Be yourself.