𝒯𝒽ℯ 𝒟ℯℯ𝓅 𝒞𝓊𝓉; 𝓂𝓅

the apology

friday; y/n POV:
today was the day of the sleepover and i decided to wear this to school today:

it's not that eye catching but I didn't want so much attention on me like Wednesday. i was sorta bummed out because of the conversation Cesar and I had yesterday.
Cesar's POV:
flashback
Thursday, the day before the sleepover

today I went to y/n's house because of the class project. i could tell she was nervous but I don't bite. she obviously hated my guts but I didn't care, I wanted her and her only. the truth is I might've even been catching feelings. ikr? me, cesar catching feelings? weird Ik. but there was something about
y/n that just called me towards her. Must've been her smile, her laugh, her goofiness, or maybe her beautiful self. idk what I was doing that night when I put myself onto her.

she didn't deserve that. i got so cross faded and I didn't know what the hell I was doing and all I knew was that I wanted her and her only. i was so selfish  and I hate myself for that. the only reason why I knocked her out was because my gang and I wanted to rob her but they bailed on me. ever since then they've stopped communicating with me. i guess they got arrested but I don't really care. the only reason why I was in that dumbass gang was because my parents died and I lived off the money I got after I finished certain jobs for gang. i was here to complete a job but I didn't want to leave y/n.

i went to y/n's house and I rang her doorbell. she opened the door and rolled her eyes at me then let me in. her house was pretty nice. then we went to her room since she had all of her project supplies up there. her room was really cute.

(this is what it looks like btw)
when we sat down it was total silence, I could feel the tension in the air. that's when I thought this was the perfect chance to apologize.
Cesar: y/n
y/n: yes?
Cesar: I know u hate me right now-
y/n: *interrupting* ur right I do
Cesar: listen please
y/n: what do u possibly have to say?
Cesar: look, I'm truly sorry from the bottom of my heart. if I could take back what I did I would, I really would. i was so cross faded when I did that. and if im being honest, my gang and I were supposed to rob u but they bailed and got arrested. I got selfish, okay? I'm admitting that. and I feel so guilty *eyes water* I would never want to do that to an innocent girl like u.
y/n: so why, why did you even join a gang in the first place?
Cesar: *starts tearing* my- my parents died about a year ago. they were stabbed to death for their money. that's why I joined the gang. the gang payed me to do jobs. that was the only money I lived off of. you may not want to forgive me but just know I'm sorry and I would never pull some shit like that again.

y/n: i forgive you
Cesar: you do?
y/n: yes. only because I can relate through the pain of loosing parents. my parents died when I was younger from a car accident.
Cesar: I'm sorry to hear that.
y/n: no it's fine, i forgive you. but if u pull something like that again ur not going to be forgiven.
Cesar: omg thank you so much, and u have my word, I'll never do some shit like that to you again.
y/n: yea I hope so. now let's get onto this project and finish it so we don't have to do it over the weekend.
cesar: yea,yea
we then finished the project in just two hours.
y/n's pov:
Cesar and I later finished the project at like 6. that's when I became curious and asked him:
y/n: wait where do you even live?
cesar: in a motel
y/n: why?
Cesar: i don't have enough money to afford a bigger place.
y/n: oh *hesitantly thinks* u can always stay here at my house if u need to. I have an extra room.
cesar: wait u mean it? even after what I did?
y/n: yes. I believe in second chances and it's obvious u mean good.
cesar:omg thank you so much, how can I thank you?
y/n: it's all good
Cesar: really?
y/n: yea
we watched a movie on Netflix in my room and when we were done I had told Cesar he could move in the same day and he was so happy. we then got a taxi to his motel. he quickly packed his things in his suitcase and we went back to my house. I then showed him the guest room:

i told him he could decorate it in any way he wanted. we sat on his bed right next to eachother. His body facing mine and my body facing his.
cesar: after all I did to u, why do u choose to help me?
y/n: because of the look I saw in ur eyes, u were genuine and i could tell u weren't lying. what can I say? I'm a professional at reading people's feelings and emotions.
cesar: well can you read this?
he then proceeded to get closer to my face. I was so confused because I didn't know how I felt about Cesar. he's very attractive, genuine and funny person. but I obviously didn't forget what he did to me that easily. he then leaned forward and kissed me. his lips were so soft and plump. part of me wanted to stop the kiss but part of me liked it. he then put his hand on my waist and slowly pulled me closer to him. he was being gentle. almost reminded of matti- oh my god mattia. right when I remembered mattia I jumped off of him. he gave me a confused look.
y/n: cesar I can't do this
Cesar: what did I do wrong?
y/n: you obviously know how I feel about mattia and i can't do that to him.
cesar: you guys aren't dating tho
he made a point but still. my feeling for mattia we're stronger than what I thought about Cesar.
y/n: still, he likes me and I like him.
Cesar: oh, well I didn't want to make u feel uncomfortable, sorry.
y/n: you don't have to apologize okay?
cesar: okay
y/n: but um it's almost ten pm, I'm gonna go hop in the shower and go to bed, u should do the same, we have a big day ahead of us tomorrow.
Cesar: okay
I had a bathroom in my room and there was a bathroom in the guest room so it was easier. I took a quick shower, brushed my hair, did my face routine and brushed my teeth. I then threw on a pair of pajamas:

(yea ik it's ugly)
I then stayed on my phone and I later looked at the time and it was 12:45 am. yea like nighttime. I then started to drift off until I heard my door open. I felt someone go on my bed and just lay there next to me. i felt hands go around my waist. then the person started to play with my hair and before I got a chance to see who it was I fell asleep