Nameless

Chapter 7 Ever dream

Author notes: English is not my first language, so please forgive my mistakes and awkward writing. This is NOT for profit. I don't own them. AU (as in Alternate Universe) and maybe OOC (as in Out of Character).

Disclaimer: This work does not contain any kind of medical or mental health care advice. It's just this author bulshitting her way out of this story.

Author notes 2: Thanks to @SunnyAlSorna and @JJSin2020 for editing this. All remaining errors are totally mine. Thanks for your votes and comments, they really motivate me to keep writing.

Author Notes 3: The song is Ever Dream by Nightwish. If you ever have the chance to look for the live version of this song with Floor Jensen as singer, it sounds even better IMHO.

Chapter 7. Ever dream

Does this mean I'm gay? Was Yi Bo's first rational thought after feeling Zhan's touch on his body. Instead of that terrible suffocating sensation that came with panic attacks, he had felt a pleasant tingle. Zhan was already letting him go, scared of provoking a bad reaction from Bo.

"Oh God! I'm so sorry," Zhan said, "it was a reflex... I didn't mean it." Was his heartfelt apology.

Yi Bo was equally surprised and confused. Something like this had never happened to him. Usually, any touch from a stranger would initiate a horrible reaction in his body and mind. Why? He wondered. Why is Zhan different? Except from his parents, anyone else would provoke a panic attack if they touched him. He had met Zhan recently and yet he didn't trigger a panic attack when he touched Bo. Finally, he reacted.

"Don't... don't worry. I'm... okay... I guess," Yi Bo told Zhan.

"Are you sure?" Zhan wanted reassurance. "I mean, you were supposed to..."

"I know..." Yi Bo replied, "this... I've never." He didn't even know how to put it into words.

"This is big," Zhan stated, "and strange and ...incredible."

"We need to talk to Dr. Lu right now," Zhan said reaching for his cellphone.

Bo felt brave, hesitantly he reached for Zhan's hand and held his wrist, closing his fingers around it very slowly, preventing him from making that phone call. "Please, don't," he pleaded, "they will come and they will want to do tests. I... just can't."

Zhan was really unsure, but he looked at Yi Bo's pleading eyes and abandoned any idea of calling Dr. Lu. Rationally, he knew what he needed to do. He was, after all, about to become a Psychologist. But it seemed that when Yi Bo was involved, rationality didn't apply any more.

He had been aware, for some time now, that his emotions were running rampant around Yi Bo. He had felt more emotions in the past few weeks, being with Yi Bo than ever in his entire life.

Zhan had felt a pull towards Yi Bo. He had tried to bury these...feelings deep down inside his mind or his heart, he didn't even know anymore, but he was tired of lying to himself. And now this. What was the meaning of this? He wanted to know, for sure.

"Okay," Zhan finally replied to Yi Bo's request, "but you know that eventually we'll have to tell him."

"I know... just not yet, please," Yi Bo said.

They seemed unaware of the fact that Yi Bo's hand hadn't left Zhan's wrist. Once they realized of it, an awkward silence descended on them. Both of them were blushing and avoiding each other's eyes.

"I think," Yi Bo broke the silence, "that something's going on."

Zhan tried to lighten the mood and ventured: "No shit, Sherlock."