Nameless

Chapter 9 Avalanche

Author notes: English is not my first language, so please forgive my mistakes and awkward writing. This is NOT for profit. I don't own them. AU (as in Alternate Universe) and maybe OOC (as in Out of Character). Characters belong to their rightful owners.

Disclaimer: This work does not contain any kind of medical or mental health care advice. It's just this author bulshitting her way out of this story.

Author notes 2: Thanks to @SunnyAlSorna and @JJSin2020 for editing this. All remaining errors are totally mine. Thanks for your votes and comments, they really motivate me to keep writing.

Author Notes 3: The song is Avalanche by Cellar Darling.

Chapter 9. Avalanche

Samyaza was getting desperate. He could not sense Armaros and he needed to talk to him. How was it possible for those two to find each other again? That was supposed to be impossible! He paused to calm himself. He knew perfectly well that if Armaros didn't want to be found, there was no way to find him. He closed his eyes, took a breath and started remembering how all this mess began.

He was once a loyal and faithful angel, completely committed to his mission and to the Lord. He was posted on Earth, as one of the Watchers, keeping an eye on humans. He didn't feel the slightest amount of attraction towards them or anybody for that matter.

He still had his veil  intact. Said veil was supposed to be a myth. Something whispered among angels, but at that point none of them was certain about its existence, or so he thought. Along with the veil rumor, there was another one. It was said that if an angel lost his veil, he or she could fall in love and experience human passion. He was sure Armaros already knew about it at that point but had said nothing.

Later, he learned that the veil was indeed a protection. It was some kind of energy that protected angels from their surroundings. The veil filtered their senses, so they could admire beauty without being attracted to it. It would make them perceive everything around them as the Lord perceived his own creation. Therefore, the veil kept them from distractions, so they would obey and complete their missions without hesitation.

It also kept their emotions in check. Although theoretically they had free will, the veil would make them want what they were supposed to desire, nothing else and nothing out of line.

He had been stationed on Earth for a while now. He noticed his brothers started being aware of the presence of human women. Some of them lusted after them. That was a great offence, he was confused. Why would they feel attracted to humans?

Suddenly, he received new orders. He needed to visit Shamsiel, the guardian of Eden. He vaguely remembered seeing him once before, but not any other detail. He just knew that nowadays he called himself Wei Wuxian. Others called him the silver Angel because of his silver eyes and wings.

Wei Wuxian was in charge of the Eden's entrance. His mission was to keep humans from re-entering Eden and he was very efficient doing that. He was a fierce and faithful angel, focused on his mission, or at least, that was his reputation.

Samyaza was ordered to visit and replace him for a while, taking his post. Wei Wuxian was supposed to depart to Heaven since he was needed there. Of course, Samyaza obeyed at once.

He reached Eden's entrance and made his presence known. Wei Wuxian's voice could be heard but he didn't see him.

"Why are you here, brother?" Wei Wuxian asked.

"I was ordered to come and replace you," Samyaza replied.

"Why?" Wei Wuxian questioned. "Am I not fulfilling my duty?"

"You're needed up there. I don't know anything else," Samyaza answered curtly. It bothered him that Wei Wuxian dared to question heaven's orders.

Finally, Wei Wuxian appeared and Samyaza's breath was stolen. First it was the clothes. He had never seen an angel that chose to wear black robes, ever. But in this case, it did nothing to make him look anything but pure. Even in black robes, that being looked ethereal.

Then he looked at his eyes. The shinning silver orbs encased in long lashes that looked at him with curious indifference. The rest of his face was just as breathtaking.

Samyaza was thinking about Wei Wuxian's beauty when he realized that he was not supposed to notice said beauty. Every one of his brothers and sisters were beautiful without exception, but he had never taken notice of that. It was just natural. Then, why he couldn't take his eyes off Wei Wuxian?

He realized that all his senses were enhanced. He smelled the flowers, heard the birds chirping around him, saw the brightness of sunlight and, wondered how Wei Wuxian's lips tasted. An avalanche of sensations razed through him.

Shivers rippled along his skin. He longed to touch him, but he refrained from it. He became self-conscious of his own beauty. He knew that someone that could perceive beauty without a filter, would find him stunning, and yet, Wei Wuxian looked at him with the same interest someone looked at a frog that is jumping in their feet. He looked at Samyaza with mild curiosity and vague interest. Nothing more. It was evident that his veil was still in place.

"So..." Wei Wuxian started, "what's your plan? You'll just wait for my return or what?"

Samyaza took a long time to answer, trying to find his voice again. "Those are my orders."

"Okay then," Wei Wuxian explained, "don't let any humans inside, take care of the animals and I'll see you when I'm back, I guess."

Without any other word he left. Just like that. He disappeared. Samyaza was sure of two things: First, he had just lost his veil and, second even if he still had his veil, Wei Wuxian was the most unique angel he had ever encountered.

Something akin to molten metal ran through his veins. He knew then what humans felt, what his brothers started to experience. It was exhilarating and frightening at the same time. A need to own Wei Wuxian, to possess him was also born inside him.

How could he make Wei Wuxian lose his veil? How could he make him fall in love with him? He would consult Armaros. He was so sure he knew what to do and how to do it. Meanwhile, he would wait in his new post, until Wei Wuxian returned.

If he were measuring time in human terms, Wei Wuxian returned twenty years later with new instructions, a new mission and company.

He still had that look of indifference in his eyes. His companion, however, did not. Harahel, the angel of wisdom traveled with him. He was also known as Lan Wangji, a golden eyed impassive angel.

Samyaza had to give it to him. He was almost fooled by his stone-like facial expression. An almost imperceptible twitch in his eye while Lan Wangji looked at Wei Wuxian gave him away.

Samyaza learned two new human emotions at that moment: jealousy and hate. Once he was replaced, he ran to find Armaros.