Minghao POV
I excused myself from the group and went into the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror. Fat. I went into a stall and locked the door. I kneeled down in front of the toilet. I did the same thing as last night. But this time I cried while doing so. I threw up all the food I had just eaten. I flushed the toilet and walked out of the stall. I used the sink to rinse out my mouth, and when I was done I dried my eyes of my tears.
I felt better having an empty stomach, I always feel fat when it's full. I put a smile on myface and walked out of the bathroom. I saw that Mingyu and Wonwoo were bickering with each other on who should pay the bill. I pulled out my wallet and walked right past them and paid. I smiled at Jun, and we held hands and walked out of the restaurant. The rest of the members followed, Wonwoo and Mingyu were grumbling and pouting.
Jun and I sat in the back of the car while driving back to the dorms. He held my hand the whole way which was comforting. Everyone was quiet, tired from dancing. I was just tired in general. tired of the lies I have to tell. Tired of the secrets of I have to keep. Tired of the way I can't stand my own reflection. Tired of just life in general.
I'm feeling a bit weak at the moment, since I haven't actually eaten anything and kept it down for 2 days. But in a way it felt nice, the members thought I was fine, and they weren't bugging me. I could also get what I want to. I smiled and rested my head on Jun's shoulder. He petted my hair while I was holding his other hand
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