Minghao POV
By the time we got back to the dorms all of us just wanted to go back to bed and sleep. But when we got here S.Coups had something to say. "I have you guy's lines for our new Japanese album. Start practicing soon. This week we will be learning the dance which Hoshi of course helped compose, and next week we will start filming. I now this is sudden, but try you best!" He handed us our lines for the new song. My eyes widened when I saw I was starting the song. I continued looking at the song and saw I had more lines. Jun came over to me "You excited baby?" I could only nod. "C'mon we'll go practice in my room" I nodded again and followed behind him to his room.
Jun and I warmed up and started practicing our lines. We could hear all the other members also practicing in 2 or 3 in each others rooms as well. We were practicing for about an hour. Well practicing turned into cuddling and cuddling lead us to get into bed. We were in bed anyways so we put the papers to the side and just decided to sleep. Well Jun was asleep right next to me at the moment, while I was wide awake unable to sleep.
I stared at the ceiling not thinking about anything in specific. I sighed and got out of the bed. I went downstairs and sat on the couch. I pulled out my phone and decided to scroll through weverse. "Mingyu는 the8보다 훨씬 귀엽습니다." ( Mingyu is cuter than the8 ) I sighed it was true "Jun的表现要比Minghao好得多" ( Jun's performance is much better than Minghao ) I read more, and it was just the same thing. All of the fans comments were true. I read so many and only saw one good one about me. I also had to use google translate for this one "Minghao น่ารักมาก - ฉันหวังว่าฉันจะเป็นเหมือนเขามากขึ้น" ( Minghao is so cute - I wish I could be more like him) I sighed and shut down my phone completely. I don't know what I did to make my our fans hate me as well. I got up of the couch and decided to make coffee.
I knew I wouldn't have the energy by myself to be learning a new dance for several hours today, so I made my coffee stronger then usual. I sipped at it, and sat back down on the couch. I continued to sip and stared at a picture on the wall. It was from 5 years ago. A pre-debut picture of all 13 of us. Smiling and having fun to get rid of our stress. I missed those days. Being a care free person. Living in the moment. Now I'm so insecure, and no longer care free. Depressed. Starving myself so I could stand my own reflection. I hate it. I hate myself.
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