🌈🥴As We Randomly Live🥀❤️

The confession

I confess I'm broken..I'm hurting..there are moments where I'm barely holding on
I know exactly where to find the person to blame....so I look in the mirror asking her why..why she could not protect me from the harshness of this earth...why she did not guard me from weapons of deceptions formed against me...I ask her why. Why why why..she answers me ..she says the only way I knew you would learn was to let you slip..let you fall abit deeper so u feel all the darkness earth could offer..then only would you learn to value all the things the light could offer..u would hold on to the happiest moments like your life depends on em..you would put your heart in all you do..u would know the difference..the pain will be your salvation..u will become wiser Nd therefore u strive to make a difference...she says the only way to learn is to experience and I could not take that away from you..from us..she tells me to forgive myself..she asks me to let go Nd free myself ..she says ur heart is in the right place but you can't help others until you help yourself..this are the kinds of talks I have once too often until it sticks Nd I've believed it
So I confess now I'm happier then I used to be..yes it still hurts but the pain is not as bad cuz I stopped fighting it and welcomed it..I feel like a slave that has almost been set free..a slave that has only a few tasks to complete until she becomes her own person..the feeling is priceless..the renewed hope I have is stronger than my obstacles..I'm happy yes I am because I'm gaining control of my situation...look into the mirror once in a while..the person u find there listens without judging