Flammingeos : I Love You

Chapter 6

I'M NOT OKAY
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We finally arrived at the restaurant and my dad asked for our reservation and took us to our table. We were waiting for my brother then not for long my brother and his girlfriend and a boy came and we welcomed them.  We all sat down so my dad was sitting next to my mom and my brother sat next to her, who sat next to kim who sat next to the boy who sat next to Jesse who sat next to me and i sat next to my dad the table was pretty much round..

"Everyone this is Ethan my brother, Ethan this is everyone" we all let out a little laugh.

"I am Jade,  this is Jesse my friend, and these are my parents and that one there is my my brother.

" No way you are Jesse underhill"

"Yeah that's me"
"I thought i recognized you, you that famous tiktoker sick bro. And Jade it's so nice to finally meet you, I've heard a couple of things about you. And you too Mr and Mrs Lockwood"

Ethan was really kind to us i guess he is like his sister, sweet and good looking cause Ethan was really really hot, he had blonde hair short on the sides and long pushed back in the middle, he had blue kinda big eyes and his skin was flawless like the sister's they were basically replicas of each other only one was younger and was male. But he was really tall taller than his sister or me or Jesse or mom about my brother's height and my brother is tall as tall as my dad.
Anyway we ordered our food and everything and we were just catching up.

"So Jade how are you?" asked kim

"I'm good. Yeah I'm alright"

"have you been going to your therapist?"

"Yeah, he liked changed my meds subscription and conditions to only take-" then i froze and looked around i mean i was comfortable telling everyone except Ethan and Jesse, they are my age and i don't think they would understand and i was afraid they would judge me. I did tell Jesse but partly so going deep in my personal stuff was a bit too much.

"I um, um.. I'm sorry i need a minute." i got so mad cause i felt like i was being treated different again and i just stood up and left the restaurant and went out side.  The first person i wanted to talk to was Geo so i called him.  And he picked up.

Geo:Hello?
Jade: Hey, it's me, Jade?
Geo: I know who it is Babe ( he laughed on the phone which made me chuckle)
Jade:  yeah i know it's just, well you said Hello in a way like well you weren't sure well-
Geo: Jade just breathe, take three deep breaths and calm down then talk to me.
( i did exactly what he Said and it did calm me down. It's like he always knew exactly what to do everytime when i panic or was weirded out or anything he was always there for me and one of the things i loved about him)
Geo: hey are you okay is everything alright?
Jade: Yeah i just really missed you and i just want to tell you I'm not mad. I am super busy tonight but I just wanted to hear your voice, i will tell you all about it tomorrow.
Geo: that's fine by me, because i actually was sleeping and got woken up with your call.
Jade: You are so sweet.

"Um hey?" i got patted by the shoulder and i turned around and it was Jesse

Jade: I will talk to you tomorrow alright bye.
I hanged up.

"Hey what's up? "

"I was trying to check if you were okay, you seemed upset"

"Um honestly yeah i was but I'm fine now, it's just i feel like every time i come home everyone treats me different from when I'm at school.. Nobody really knows my background so I'm treated normal but when here i am treated differently and I understand but I'm just not comfortable talking about it to everyone it's just still personal and i don't want you to think any less or different of me And Ethan too. I mena his sister its fine she's a doctor but it's embarrassing when talking about something like that with people your age. "

"wow hey, It's okay i wouldn't think any less or different of you, I already know the real Jade so anything you do, wouldn't make me think any less of you. "

His words made me smile that also made me feel better. So i smiled at him. He pulled me into a hug it felt nice and he smelled so good.

" Thanks Jesse"

"For what"

"Giving me a little pep talk"

"Well i was told to come try and convince you to come in so i had to make something up"

"Wow Jesse"  i pulled away from him now cause he was being a douche

"I'm just kidding, i wanted to talk to you" He laughed as he said his words, pulling me back into the hug.  We stayed for like a while hugging then it got weird.

"Well um everyone is waiting for me to probably show up with you so we have to go"

"Yep, yep let's go"

Jesse and I headed back in & i apologized for walking off and everyone said it was fine and kim blamed herself but i told her it wasn't, i was just going through a trauma i said. anyway we all got to know each other better. I just kinda wished Geo was here too so that my brother got to know him like the way i did for some reason he didn't like him i think it's because he couldn't bare me dating and the fact he had a couple of tattoos he thought Geo was bad news cause of that but he liked Jesse because he had gotten to know him tonight and i thought that maybe if he gotten to know Geo too he would have liked him.