Winter is coming - Kakashi x OC

Monstrous Qualities

Hey Guys, just pretend the photo is only of the first, second and third Hokage's faces :) 

Yori’s POV

Over the past week I have been sulking. I have been trapped in the hospital, staring mindlessly at the white roof, occasionally glancing out the window where the Hokage’s faces are. The rest of the team has visited me, but lately I have been in my own world, reminiscing what occurred on the last mission. 

As of right now I am bored out of my mind, I can’t think straight with the constant beeping of the machinery beside me. I sit up, no longer sore, and wait a minute, trying to hear any person near my room. As far as I am aware no one is here, ‘Yes! Escape time.’ I unplug the machinery, grab clothes that Kakashi was so nice to drop off, ‘more like dump it on the chair near my bed, ‘hm’, and walk out’. I get changed and jump on the windowsill. I peer outwards, the breeze blowing through my hair. ‘It feels so nice’. 

I jump on the closest roof and run. I keep running, chasing the birds and clouds, dodging the odd chimney or pole that appear in front of me skilfully. After a while I stop, I look forwards and notice I am on the top of the Hokage’s faces. I smile softly and sit down on the third’s head. I see the entire village, everyone happy, children running around gleefully playing games… It makes me think about my time here, the friends I have made, my roommate who has mood-swings like a girl and is thick as a tree when it comes to any relationships, whether it be friendship or teammates, … the mission… I sigh. ‘I don’t know what happened but everyone has been treating me a little differently, like they are treading on thin ice, afraid I will become that… monster again. Don’t get me wrong, being a wolf is amazing, its just I can’t control my form well. According to my clan’s legends those who are born with ice white fur cause havoc. They are said to have a heart as cold as ice, and everything they come across will slowly become frozen, its a curse - you lose yourself and … everything goes south from there.’ 

I sit here a few more hours, observing the interactions of villagers and ninja’s hopping to and fro all over the village. I pull my knees up, wrap my arms around my legs and put my chin on top of my knees. I sigh really loudly and jump. “I always come out here when I have to think, sitting here always allows me to clear my head. Do you mind if I sit beside you?” I shake my head. “What’s bothering you Yori?” Hokage-sama sits down and turns to me, he smiles gently. His smile instantly calms me and I begin to ramble on what I have been pondering the last few hours. “Ever since I was a kid everyone treated me differently, just because I was born with a purely white fur coat and ice powers. It’s not my fault I can’t control them that well nor my wolf form. No one has tried to teach me… So sometimes I lose control and then everyone treats me differently, like they are now after our last mission… I am a monster…” “You are not a monster, you are a child with a unique ability to turn into a wolf. I wouldn’t worry your little head over it, one of my students, Tsunade, she has been considered a monster because of her monstrous strength… that girl can pack a punch” he mumbles rubbing his left arm. “Just because you have monstrous qualities does not make you a monster. I believe young one you need to vent, do something spontaneous that would make you feel better afterwards. After you clear your head from all this non-needed negativity you can train and take control of your wolf form and ice powers. I, and your sensei and even your teammates will be here to help you, so don’t ever think your a monster and therefore you are on your own.” He rubs my head and disappears. 

I remain seated thinking over what he said. ‘Vent… vent about how I feel will make me feel better…Singing always makes me feel better….’ (A/N I do not own the song, I just think the song works, and pretend a girl is singing the song - really well xx - Monster by Imagine Dragons - p.s change when she says man to girl if it makes more sense when reading it)

Ever since I could remember,
Everything inside of me,
Just wanted to fit in (oh oh oh oh)
I was never one for pretenders,
Everything I tried to be,
Just wouldn't settle in (oh oh oh oh)

If I told you what I was,
Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous,
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
That this problem lies in me

I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.

Can I clear my conscience,
If I'm different from the rest,
Do I have to run and hide? (oh oh oh oh)
I never said that I want this,
This burden came to me,
And it's made its home inside (oh oh oh oh)

If I told you what I was,
Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous,
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because,
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
That this problem lies in me

I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.

I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.

My voice fades into the light breeze that flows into the village. “We never thought of you as a monster, even after the mission” I completely jump up unaware of the presence near me or the fact that someone heard me sing, I turn around sharply and pivot my right foot backwards to a non existent area and begin to fall. I close my eyes when a hand grabs my arm and pulls me into their chest. “Gees, you were already in the hospital for serious injuries, we don’t need you staying there anymore, it doesn’t benefit the team to have a member in the hospital as we don’t do any good missions until you are better…” I look up and see Kakashi staring down at me. I blush really hard and move backwards, sitting down a little ways from him. 

“You heard me sing…” ‘How embarrassing,’ I look anywhere but Kakashi. “You were good, I like your voice…” ‘Naww he’s becoming a softy… wait he likes my voice?!? I think I turned a new shade of red’. I sigh softly, I am sure he heard that so consequently he sits beside me. “You are not a monster, you are different yes, you do make me nervous with your lack of control…” ‘how tactful’ I think depressively, “but you are a strong ninja and I uh… never got to thank you for um.. rescuing me” he mumbles, “however you didn’t need to launch me into the ground, you broke one of my ribs doing that” he frowns. 

“Uh.. sorry…” I rub my head sheepishly. “hmm, everyone treats me differently now, like the other day when Obito and Rin came to see me they flinched a little when I got close to them and you didn’t even talk to me when you came to see me…” “I can’t speak for them, but I am sure they would say that they are just worried about you, they don’t like seeing you hurt, you are their friend no matter how short ago they met you… We have been searching for you after we were notified you had disappeared…” I tune him out, ‘they don’t think I am a monster, Kakashi doesn’t see me as a monster, they were worried about me and searched for me’ knowing this makes me happy and jumpy. I squirm in happiness and relief when arms wrap around me, I freeze taking in the warmth. I look at Kakashi seeing him looking away from me. “uhh?” I say stupidly, but I know I am blushing madly. He lets go instantly and grabs my arm pulling me up. “We need to get you to the hospital” thats all he said when he began taking me against my will.