Unseen Letters To Lux

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Dear Ahsoka,

I miss you, you have been gone for so long.

There were some rumors that you have died.

If if you have, or haven't, I've found a way to move on.

I'm sorry Ahsoka.

The thought of you only is too much. I found that It was easier to forget...

I met a girl named Hyla today, and I am already crazy about her.  She's someone I can settle down with, and have the life we couldn't. It's just...

I'm sorry Ahsoka.

I don't want to hurt you.

You were good to me.

I don't even know if you felt the same way for me. I can't love you forever if I don't even know if you love me back. It's time for both of us to move on, and I don't even know if you're alive.

Hyla is amazing! I bet you two would be great friends. I am getting to an age where I am expected to marry soon.

I remember on one of our walks, I told you I was scared of growing old, and being alone. Ugh, Ahoska you make this so hard, you were good to me.

But it's time to close every door because I'm sick of wanting more.

You were good to me.

I promise that I won't hurt you anymore, I'm different than before.

You were good to me.

Your old friend,
Lux.

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Dear Lux,

I just read your other letter...

I have no words.

You just decided to forget me.

Is it easier that way? Did I really cause you pain?

I know I should just forget about you too, but something is stopping me. It's the hope for the world you gave me, and now I wish you never gave it to me.

You taught me to see gray, but it was easier when it black and white.

When it was black and white I knew not to feel, but you showed me the colors of the world. You showed me emotions and everything new. You showed me light where I saw dark.

I wish you would take your colors back.

Some people were only made to see white and black.

Ahsoka.