Dark Paradise | Kylo Ren | X Reader

11 Irresistible 11

[WARNING: MILD BLOOD]

It'd been hours since your full on therapy session with Lydia and Emerson. They had helped you feel somewhat better about the whole situation with Kylo. You had given them a short summary of what's been going on lately, excluding the...explicit parts. Those were private and you planned on keeping them that way.

You'd recently heard first order personnel discussing Kylo's departure from the ship. Apparently he was visiting some random resistance planet. You didn't know what that entailed but you didn't care. He didn't deserve to be present in your thoughts, you were still furious with him.

You were unsure of what the future held. You knew you wanted to attempt at having a fresh start without Kylo in your life. But unfortunately, it wouldn't be that simple to just forget about him. For the time being, your plan was to distract yourself as much as possible and hope you'd eventually find the strength to move on.

You began to run a hot shower to try and relieve some of your stress. It was getting pretty late so you'd be heading to bed soon anyways.

Just as the water splashed onto your foot, you heard a loud knock at the door. Seriously...who was bothering you at this hour? You weren't in any mood for visitors but you shut the water off, threw your towel on and made your way to the door.

You cracked it open, hoping not to expose yourself too much. Between the small space the door had made with the frame, you saw the eye of a very familiar face.

It was Kylo.

Clearly he had gotten back from his little joy ride, but why was he here? He had some nerve showing up after what had happened earlier.

Something didn't seem quite right though...his eye was bloodshot, puffy and saturated with pain.

You couldn't see him, not now. You'd had enough of his bullshit for the night. You shut the door and turned back round, heading towards the bathroom.

The door swung open and you jumped at the sound of it slamming behind Kylo. You grasped your towel, tightening it around you.

"Get out. Now." Your tone was harsh.

Ignoring you completely, he began moving towards you. His face appeared to be covered in, was that...blood and...tears?
You'd never seen such an utterly shocking sight. He looked absolutely distraught. You swallowed hard as he reached you in the bathroom doorway.

"Y/N." His voice was hoarse and it cracked when he spoke.

"Why are you here?" You folded your arms. You were trying so hard to ignore the broken human that stood in front of you.

"I- I don't know." He furrowed his brows.

As you scanned his body, his cloak was covered in blood...it didn't appear to be his own.

"Kylo what happened?" You gave in. You couldn't stand to see him like this.

"I'm...not discussing that." His voice was stern.

"If you're not gonna tell me, then- then get out." It pained you deeply to say those words but he was being difficult like usual, you didn't have the patience.

"I raided a village. That's all you need to know okay?" He huffed.

"What do you mean you raided a vill-...Kylo what did you do?" You were genuinely concerned at this point.

Silence.

"KYLO." You raised your voice, hoping for an answer.

"I killed. And...I didn't stop killing until everyone was- until everyone was dead." His entire expression changed, he seemed to be infused with guilt.