DEAF HINATA AU - The Sound of Silence

• listen out for me •

Hinata POV
I had a headache and I felt sick, but I never wanted to let go of him.

I meant what I said.

I felt safe in his arms.
I felt safe listening to his voice.

Suddenly he was shaking.
"Please don't leave"

I guess he heard we were moving.

My mum had told me when I was sick and delusional, and for a moment there I could have sworn it was a fever dream, but seeing him like this I guess it's true.

"I'm not going anywhere" I tell him. "I'm not going anywhere..."

After, he sat down on the chair and talked to me. I still wasn't used to talking and got exhausted pretty quickly.

"Does anything hurt?" he asks.

"My head" I say. "And my throat I guess. And my..."

I trail off and point at my ear which they did the surgery on.

Kageyama took a picture and showed it to me.

It was puffy and swelling, but then again the doctors said it would be like that.

I tried to think back to what happened before my surgery.

When I came to the hospital the nurses were already there, silencing me and putting me on a stretcher.

Before I knew it they we're explaining everything to me, but it sort of went in one ear and out the other.

I was scared.
I was confused.
I couldn't think straight.
I wanted Kageyama.

But they put me under anaesthetic faster then I could say his name.

Although I couldn't move, I heard what my mother said to me.

I just didn't care.
I didn't need her.
Not at all.
I needed only one person...

By the end of the day the team and some of my other friends had come to see me. I told Kageyama he should get some rest but he didn't listen.

He told me about what happened with Hideo, and he teased me for not telling him that we dated.

I ended up going red and he ended up laughing at me.

I avoided any questions he asked about me moving, I didn't want to think about it and clearly he didn't want to either.

Natsu visited me too and by 8:00 I was exhausted.

"Go home" I tell Kageyama. "You look so tired"

"You're one to talk" he says, yawning.

I tap my bed and move over a little. "You can stay here if you like. Come sit down at least."

He was too tired to give any kind of smug remark.

Without hesitation, he came and lay down next to me, falling asleep almost instantly.

I smiled and brushed his hair out of his face, using his chest as a pillow and also falling asleep.

"Goodnight Tobio" I mumble.
As I'm about to pass out I hear a small,
"Night, Shouyo"

Kageyama POV
I ended up going home while he was still sleeping, getting my things and having to explain to Miwa why I wasn't picking up or home.

Recovery from the surgery was said to take up to four to six weeks.

I visited him almost everyday, and when he finally got discharged I helped him pack his bag.

"Hey, Kageyama" he asked me. "Can I take one of your hoodies?"

"My hoodies?" I asked "Why would you want one of those?"

He shrugged his shoulders.

"I don't know. I just thought I could have it to remember how you smell"

I blushed a little and he smiled at me, continuing to pack.

"Where are you going, anyways?" I asked.

"Kyoto" he responded. "We're moving there with my mums boyfriend"

Kyoto was far.
Too far.
874km away from the place that he grew up in.

He smiled, but I could tell he was upset about it.

"Hey, can you grab my knee pads. They're outside on the porch" he asked me.

"Yeah sure." I said "Be right back"

When I got outside there were two pairs of knee pads, one was smaller and the other way a bit bigger.

"Hey Hinata, which one do you want?" I called from inside the house.

Anyone else would have heard, but since he's still recovering I don't think he understood.

I sighed and walked into the house.

"Hinata, are yours the bigger ones or the smaller-"

When I stood my the doorway, I saw him sobbing into one of his t-shirts, whispering "shit" to himself "I don't wanna go"

I thought of doing something.
Hugging him.
Comforting him.
Even just saying something.

But he was strong.
He didn't need me.
I knew he could figure this out by himself.

Instead I left the knee pads by his door with a note saying, 'I'll be back'

I put my shoes on and walk back to my house. I looked through my draws and ended up finding the blue hoodie that I stopped wearing about a month ago.

Before I left the house, I sprayed come cologne on it like an idiot.

When I got to Hinatas house however, the taxi was already there and the bags were getting loaded.

My stomach dropped when I saw Hinata and his mum saying bye to the landlord and Natsu tearing up a little.

He was going.
He was leaving me for good.

I didn't want him to.
I didn't want to let him go.

He was laughing when I caught his eye. His face dropped but he was still smiling.

We walked up to each other, and met halfway through the driveway.

"Do you really have to go?" I asked.
He nodded.
"I think so"

I bit my lip and hugged him tight. He hugged me back and whispered "I'm never really gone. Remember that"

I wanted to cry but I couldn't.
Not anymore.
I needed to be strong for him.

I put my hoodie on him. It was a little big, but he looked comfy.

"Goodbye, Kageyama" he said.
My lips trembled as I said,
"Bye, Hinata"

As he turned away and began walking, my stomachs twisted into a knot.

I grabbed his arm and before I knew it I pulled him into a kiss.

When I pulled away I said,

"Listen out for me, kay'. You can do that now, right"

He nodded.

"I love you"
"I love you too"

I fell to my knees when I watched the taxi leave.

Listen out for me, Hinata.
I love you.