Wishes (SpUk fanfic)

Chapter 3

Chapter 3: What If?

I was in the school's garden, I didn't know exactly why but that I wanted to avoid him. I wanted to avoid Arthur. Tonight seemed different in a way since I wasn't acting like my usual self when I encountered him.

"Tweet tweet"

I turned around and saw two birds on the ugly tree that lead to the entrance of the garden, where I'm at. It was the only entrance and exist actually since nobody cared about this place but me and...Well, just me. I'm the only one at this school that even bothers taking care of this garden.

The garden isn't that pretty to tell you the truth. It's just a small circle shape because the original wall that was made of bricks was covered with vines and other unknown plants. The ground inside the garden is covered by grass that had a yellowish green in it, there were small old rusty pots of plants surrounding the inside of the walls that I water almost everyday, if I don't forget, and there was a bench right in the middle of the garden not facing the entrance/exit, but there was only one tree, and it is ugly, it was where the birds are at. The tree is ugly because, well, it didn't have any leaves and was all dry-looking.

It was the only tree in this small garden, but for some reason it makes me feel as if I shouldn't judge it yet. That I should give it more of something, give it a chance, and it will blossom beautifully. But that's not happened yet.

I sighed and decided to just sit on the bench and stared at the sky. Perhaps I shouldn't have done this because many "what ifs" were popping in my head because of my encounter with Arthur.

I mean, what if we had never fought and hated each other in pre-k? Will we have been couples now? What if I was born in a wealthy family? Then will Arthur have interests in me? Or what if I was Gilbert's cousin that is betrothed to Arthur? What if I never left that day? The day that I left him. What if, what if I wish on the brightest star? Wish that Arthur could hate me. Will that make me feel better? It should, shouldn't it? Then I won't feel this boiling jealousy of Gil's cousin. And then I won't have to deal with this pain Arthur is burdening me with.

But then, what if Arthur loves me? What if he loves me and I didn't know? What if Arthur and Gil's cousin got their betrothed canceled? And I didn't know. What if Arthur pretends to hate me because I pretend too? What if I tell Arthur if we could start all over? Will that help our relationship? Or will it make it too awkward for us? What if I wish on the star so that Arthur could love me back? Or should I wish that Gil's cousin died and Arthur could be mine again?

I gasped as I thought that last "what ifs". How could I be so cruel? What was going on with me and why am I acting unusual today?

I wasn't sure how long I was staring at the night sky as I thought the "what ifs", but when I moved my head my neck ached. I faced down on my lap and closed my eyes trying regain myself and not become the cruel person I hoped I'd never be. I sluggishly took my phone out of my pocket and looked at the time.

Eleven forty-nine p.m.

Great. Just great! Now I'm probably too late to meet my friends at the gym and make the "New Year's Wish"! It's probably too late to even make it to the gym to at least count down with other students in school! Everything is ruined today! Dios, can't I at least have fun with this so called "best party of all time"?!

My face was still facing down as I saw a drop of water fall on my phone. My eyes seemed to blur and I thought my eyesight was going blind. Looking up at the sky I noticed that it wasn't cloudy or sprinkling, maybe I was imagining the drop?

I used my thumb to smear it across my phone's screen. It was wet, than that means...I reached to my face and before I knew it, streams of water were falling down from my eyes, to my cheek, and then to my shirt and phone.

I quickly put my phone up and sighed angrily and loudly. Everything was ruined so what's the point in holding in all of my rage? I don't even want to make that stupid wish anymore! I can survive without having to depend on a fucking star to do my work! I should be proud I've done something I had always dreamed of by myself! Not be proud that the star did it for me! Who even created the stupid story of the bright star?

I was sobbing loudly now so I decided to wrap my arms around my bent knees and put my head inside. I hate this New Year's Wish. Just like how I hate Arth-

"Aren't you going back inside to make the wish?"A voice called from behind me.

I raised my head and turned around towards the only entrance/exit of the garden, there seemed to be someone standing there, but I couldn't see who exactly since it was pretty dark and some clouds were covering the night sky's stars. Luckily I stopped sobbing like a girl and quickly turned back around and wiped all of my tears away with my red jacket's sleeve.

I heard footsteps coming closer and I knew at that moment that the person was trying to get to me. I quickly turned around to say I was fine and that they shouldn't have come here since they were pretty much late to go back to the gym and count down with the students and make the wish.

But then as the clouds moved out of the way and the stars shown brightly I could make out the face. I wished I haven't turned around and looked at the person, because it was Arthur Kirkland.