Breaking Free (Phoenix Rising)

Chapter 8 - Ellianna

After the gym fiasco and my long shower, Sonja and Ty kept me company with that early dinner, a few drinks and blasting music. Ty kept pushing me to talk, but I still didn't want to.

Then a song came on, it hit so close to my heart I made Sonja repeat it on her sound system four times before Ty finally said "I get it Princess. I'll back off."

I'm holding back right now
'Cause I'm numb to what's around
I miss the life I used to have with you right here
Now everything has turned to grey
And I'm blacking out the shades for now

Let me be sad
Even for a little while
Just a chance to catch my breath
Let me be sad
Even for a little while
'Cause it's all that I have left
When all I see are the memories, I don't want to lose a thing
Let me be sad, let me be sad

Can you see it in my eyes I've been distant?
'Cause I can't tell if it's the end or the beginning
I know I haven't been myself, I'll admit it
And I put up walls, so if I burned any bridges just know
I'm doing everything i can to try and fix it
But knowing me I'll probably miss it
These voices get so vicious
Feels like I'm rippin' stitches
I wish some days I could go back
Before life changed, it was so fast
That time is gone and I know that
So please

Let me be sad
Even for a little while
Just a chance to catch my breath
Let me be sad
Even for a little while
'Cause it's all that I have left
When all I see are the memories, I don't want to lose a thing
Let me be sad, let me be sad

I'm doing everything i can to try and fix it
But knowing me I'll probably miss it
These voices get so vicious
Feels like I'm rippin' stitches
I wish some days I could go back
Before life changed, it was so fast
That time is gone and I know that
All that we have is a moment
So please

Let me be sad
Even for a little while
Just a chance to catch my breath
Let me be sad
Even for a little while
'Cause it's all that I have left
When all I see are the memories, I don't want to lose a thing
Let me be sad, let me be sad

I'm holding back right now
(Let me be sad)
'Cause I'm numb to what's around
I miss the life I used to have with you right here
Now everything has turned to grey
And I'm blacking out the shades for now
*Credit. Let Me Be Sad- I Prevail*

Daylight was starting to fade and we decided to pick a movie to watch and ease up on drinks since Ty and Sonja both had an early morning. Though picking a movie turned into a fight between the two.

Halfway through the movie someone was knocking on the door. Ty answered and proceeded to yell from Sonja's porch.

"Girl, you've been back like a day and you're already causing trouble."

I roll my eyes at Sonja. "Well, if someone told me Cole was back and I'd be running into him every other turn, maybe I could have avoided this."

"You think that's who he's yelling at out there?"

"Who else? But how would he know I'm here?"

"He kinda owns this town babes. Him and his gang of merry men bikers."

"What are you even talking about Sonja?"