Spinning unitl i fall (ON HOLD)

Chapter 12: 2:00 am

Listen to: Out of the woods by Taylor Swift
That night I couldn't sleep, lucky for me I choose the bottom bed on the bunk otherwise I'm sure I've would've gotten a pillow thrown in my face for moving so much.I closed my eyes and started singing a song in my head wishing that would make me fall asleep and I think it did, Just not for that long. When I looked at the clock it was 2:00 am. There was no data so I couldn't just watch a movie so I decided to go outside, our cabin had a little front porch with a couple of chairs we brang so I decided to sneak out there, luckily when I checked both of them where profound in their sleep.

I started waking and as I went on the next thing I felt was the rocks On the ground as I collapsed on the floor . I don't know for how long I did just that when I stood up my knees where bruised. After that I walked a few steps more and found a little bench.

I'm not huge on nature but something about the way it's so peacefully at night and the only thing you can hear is the distant sounds of the animals calms me. When I was little my family used to do this big camping trips where we'd try to go to as many as we could in the summer, my brother and father love the outdoors whereas my mom and I would spent most of our time knitting or taking pictures. I don't remember with certainty the last trip we did, I think it was before my 9th birthday, after that skating started to get in the way of it and we could't go anymore . after I turned nine I'd spent most of the summer in skating camp.

The summer after that was when my parents decided it was best for me to do online school instead of day school. I wasn't giving results, academically I was falling most of my classes, I had skating first thing in the morning before school and then after-school until night. Now looking back at it and with the uncertainty of not knowing if I skate ever again the same way and at the same level I did before frightens me. I wished I would've cherished my childhood more. Not saying it wasn't amazing but sometimes I wonder the different person I'd become if I hand't been forced in a way to grow up quickly because of the scrutiny of the sport. If I hand't replaced the playgrounds with skating rinks, If I hand't traded the sneakers for skates. That's the thing about night for me. It's always been the time where my head gets filled up more with the what if's, what could've been.

But then I stand up shake my clothes and remember that this is my own doing, I wanted this, I've trained for this and fought relentlessly . The what if's will always be that, endless possibilities but nothing like the life i've lived and chosen for myself. No matter the results I know I gave it my all. And that there's a me, There's an Emily Davis outside the figure skater, outside the glass doll everybody's waiting so see if it Shaters.

The following step is beyond me, I've done everything now it's time to wait. And hope, because even when you feel like everything isn't going your way you don't need to loose hope.

When I walked back to the cabin I felt biter-sweet, for me I think the part that was incomplete about this process, the injury, rehab, new begginigns all of it is gone, I've come to terms with all the cards that are being delt with right before me and somehow I feel at peace. I'll take things as they happen not focusing on the what if's but rather of the amazing things i've lived through the ice. I entered the cabin and things where exactly the same, the sleepyheads where profound, my bed was slightly unmade and so I just went back in and felt asleep almost instantly.

The next morning I woke up and  Charlotte was still asleep and Lilia was getting ready in the bathroom, We'de taked turns and I remembered was next so I quickly jumped out of bed and woke up Charlotte. A few minutes later the three of us headed out to the catine to grab breakfast. I met up with my dad and chatted with him for a while before I went back to the table with the others.

" So how did you sleep last night" Ash asked me while filling her mouth full of the pancakes

" Good, well as hope as one can in the woods, and specially with charlotte's loud snores the hole night. " I laughed quietlly so Charlotte would't notice sitting in the oposite end of the table.

" So Char, what are the activities for today?"

" Essentially we each go with the memebers of our houses and are supposed to do the activities of the day with them, the point of it all is that at the bonfire tonight the house with the most points gets a reward to bring back"

I wondered what house I'd been assigned, from what I gathered they get sorted at the beggining of high school. And since I hadn't been here for that I wasn't sorted.

"Oh Em that remainds me you need to go and talk to Mr. Wylie I belive he has your house"

"Thanks Ash, have you seen him?"

"Nop sorry Em, just that last night after you guys left the bonfire we where helping organize it all and he told me"

" Still Mr. Wylie is a crazy man when it comes to fild trips so if you don't find him each house will be readen outloud just in case someone dosen't remember. "

"How many houses are they?"

"4, Adjunante, Cumplidor, Fide'le, and Pembaru, I know werid names. The founder of the school was english and so it's tradittion in englad to have houses.  ever since his family has always been  at the head of the school so the tradition has remained."

"What houses are you guys sorted into?"

"Lilia and Ash are in Adjunante and  Char is in Pembaru"

"Oh that's nice"

We stood there for a while until everyone finished eating and then we headed up towards the gathering point. Just when we were leaving my Dad called me up with his hand he had found my spare conacts in his bag and so I quickly went into the bathroom to put them on , by the time I got to the main point everyone was already divided into their house. I was so confused for a second and looked around for a while until I found Mr. Wylie.

"Hey Mr. Wylie sorry to bother you  I'm Emily Davis. I'm a new student from this year and I don't know my house, I was told that you had my information?"

" Hi Emily, yes let me check"

He looked through the pages carefully. For a moment I was worried I wasn't on any list.

" AHA, here you are (pff letters),  so Emily is says here you are in house Cumplidor, they are the ones over there with the purple t-shirts. They'll explain everything for you in more detail."

"Thank you Mr. Wylie!"

"Enjoy!" He said as he waived me goodbye. ...