I didn't want this-I didn't want this-I didn't want this-
Her blood is on my hands, it's fucking everywhere-
I should've been more careful. I should've been there. I was the one who was supposed to protect her and now? Now what?
Her blood won't come off my hands, no matter how hard I scrub. She'll always be on me, a reminder of what I failed to do, a reminder of what I will never get back.
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry it happened this way.
I didn't mean for it to happen, I didn't want this for you, for any of you. You deserved more than this and I'm sorry I couldn't give it to you.
Please, you have to forgive me, you have to understand I thought I was doing something important, I thought this was all for something better.
It was wrong of me to get you involved, I understand that now. If I could take it all back, you have to know, I would-I would-I would-
No matter how hard I scrub, your blood is still there. It's all I ever see. I'm afraid it's all I'm going to see from now on. Your blood was hot to the touch until it wasn't. It was warm, alive, until you weren't.
You were dead when I got there. I was too late.
I will always be too late.
I didn't want this, okay? You have to know that. I didn't want any of this to happen and I can't change it, no matter how hard I try. You will always be dead and it's all because of me.
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.
I can still see you, so clearly in my head. It all happens for a reason, you'd whisper, touching my face with your cold hand. You would smile, toothy and hungry for life, for an adventure and mystery I promised you.
It all happened for a reason.
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hey everyone! I hope you all like the changes I've been making to the story since the first time I uploaded the "edited version."
I've made a LOT of changes since the first round of uploading so I really hope you guys like them and let me know in the comments what you think and honestly, anything will help!! :)
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