Magcon Bullied Me ((UNDER EDITING))

Chapter Twenty

P.S the two people who have the lyrics so far and that can be in the book are : Zayra Alverez, and CathyCakkkkeeee (I think that's how it's spelled sorry Cathy:) if you wanna be in it, guess the lyrics at the end! It's the FIRST COMMENT that gets it:) ~S😘

Steffi POV

I quickly walk through the studio doors and I sigh of relief as I see Nina. I walk to her and give her a hug, "So happy your alright." She smiles breaking away.

I nod smiling, "Ready to record?" She raises an eyebrow, a smile on her lips as she motions towards the recording booth.

I nod again, "Yeah sure, it's ok if these guys watch right?" I ask pointing to the Cam and Matt.

Her eyes widen slightly as she recognizes whom they are. She shoots me a wary look, I nod once, "It's okay." I whisper as she walks by. She breathes out and nods once. Her and the boys walk into the regular studio while I go into the booth to record.

She turns the speaker on, "Got your song memorized?" She glances to me.

I nod and give her a thumbs up as I smile. I nod once as the music starts.

I start to sing as the music starts.

I can hold my breath.

All the bullying that has happened before, I can do many things.

I can bite my tongue.

For when the boys told me to shut up and not say anything about it.

I can stay awake for days .
If that's what you want.
Be your number one.

I can fake a smile.
I can force a laugh.
I can dance and play the part.

I've been doing it for years, ever since the bullying started.

If that's what you ask.
Give you all I am.

I can do it.
I can do it.
I can do it.

I can make it through everything that's happened.

But I'm only Human.
And I bleed when I fall down.

When the boys have hurt me or think about doing it again. I'm Human, I can be fragile, and I bleed out. Like when the boys bullied me, I bleeded after almost every beating.

I'm only human.
And I crash and I break down.

When I can't take it, I cut myself, and I think of things.. And I cry it all out. I've even gotten drunk before I wanted to forget.

Your words in my head, knives in my heart.

When the boys said and called me things, and made things up. Before all of that they were my friends, that's why it feels like knives getting shoved into my heart.

You build me up and then I fall apart.
Cause I'm only human.

I can turn it on.
Be a good machine.
I can hold the weight of worlds.
If that's what you need.
Be your everything.

I can do it.
I can do it.
I'll get through it.

But I'm only Human.
And I bleed when I fall down.
I'm only human.
And I crash and I break down.
Your words in my head, knives in my heart.
You build me up, and then I fall apart.
Cause I'm only Human.