The Best Seducer | JJK ff || 21+

Why Him?

*Y/n POV*

I leaned my head back looking up at the ceiling in my bathtub. The water hugging my body in a smoothing way.
Memories of this morning keep flashing back at me. I could see Suga face pleading for my forgiveness. I felt so hurt and betrayed everytime I see his face.

I placed my hand over my chest feeling it tighting everytime. I took the bottle of wine and chugging it down half way. I didn't know what to feel anymore. I hated him for doing this to me. He faked everything this hold time and here I was playing along to his game.

I could still remember the first time we met he didn't have anyway to go and said his father kidded him out. So I took him in at first we were strangers it took a while for him to start opening up. There he told me his worries and fear, it made me happy that I could of be there to comfort him. I wanted to be there for him. But now I didn't think he would of done this to me. I trusted him enough to hold my life in his hand but he ended up being the wrong person and now It feels like we're strangers again.

A memory flashed into my head.

And without thinking I gradded the wine bottle and smashed it in the floor.

Tears build up as I placed my hand over my mouth muffing out my cries and sobs. I wanted to scream my head hurted and I felt like everything around me was spinning. Why did he have to be the one to betrayed me? Why Him?

"Why Him!!" I screamed holding onto my heart that ached.

*Bang*

The door swing open revaling Hwasa. I jerked my head looking at her true my teary eyes. She looked horrified looking at the mess I made in the middle of floor. She looked at me with tears in her eyes and quickly run to me hugging me tight even though I was wet.

"Please! Please! Please Y/n! We can't lose you I can't lose you! WE ALL IN PAIN SO PLEASE! WE CAN'T SEE YOU LIKE THIS YOU LOCKED YOURSELF IN YOUR ROOM AND WOULDN'T EAT PLEASES THE MEMBERS AND I ARE HURTING TOO!!" She shouted holding onto me for her dear life. I felt my heart ached even more.

How could I be so stupid I didn't even study now the members feel about this what kind of a leader am I. I patted Hwasa back calming her down. 

"Im sorry, Im sorry, shh." I said to her until she stopped crying.

"T-the m-members are downstairs worried about you." She said letting go and wipping her tears away.

I was so blind I didn't relieved I was hurting them too. I got out of the bathtub and got changed a maid came and cleaned the mess.

Hwasa and I went downstairs. Going down the staircase I stopped in my traces seeing all the members in the living room. They all looked worried before there attention came to me.
Mark quickly ran up to me "Are you ok? do you want somthing to eat-' I cut him off by bowing my head infornt of all the members.

They all looked socked. "Im Sorry, Im so sorry I made you guys worry and I left my post as leader." I said not being able to raise me head. Jennie came up to me and pat me in my shoulder making me finally look up. I felt my breath stop seeing the members with tears in there eyes.

"Guy..." I whispered looking at them.

"Im just happy your ok." Jackson said sending me a smile.

We all came in and did a group hug.
All this time they were hurting beacause of me. I could still remember the day I required them and made them my family. I often wonder if they would have a better life without all these guns and weapons. I'm the one who took all there innocents.
Would they have been better without me.

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