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𝐚𝐜𝐭 𝐬𝐢𝐱𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧.

Tuesday April 28th, 2020

My shivering body, felt limp ...
lifeless almost. Today was one of those
really bad mental days. I had been
spiraling and having one depressive
episode after another.

The joints in my body felt brittle
and ached badly, as if I made
a wrong move and pulled something.

My head had been pounding
for a few hours now, due to
all the crying I had been doing.

My stomach— nearly touching
my back, was growling like a mad
pitbull. I hadn't eaten since eight
o'clock last night ... it was now
one in the afternoon.

Although I heard my stomach's
weeps for food, I ignored them
and just continued to lay
distracted by the numbness I
had been feeling.

Lissa tried numerous efforts
to get me out of my room,
to get me to socialize,
and even to go eat something.
But they all failed, seeing as I
wouldn't budge— I just physically
could not do any of those things.

Her last resort was calling Mani,
who was currently upset with
me because she felt as if I were
ignoring her ... which wasn't the
case at all.

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After what felt like a lifetime,
but realistically was only a couple
of hours— I managed to slip out
of bed and put my energy towards
taking a shower.

Almost an hour had passed of
me being in the shower, most of
it was spent in daze. So I finally
decided to get out; once I had my
pajamas on, I turned the light off
and went to lay back in bed.

As I made my way back to my bed,
I saw a bouquet of red and yellow
roses, a basket with my favorite
snacks and movies, a face mask,
fuzzy socks, and a bag of In N Out.

Before I could even question who
did all this, there stood Mani
and Lissa in my bedroom doorway.