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loml ✨🌻🤎  sent you an imessage              1m ago
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Immediately I knew what that meant,
it was our code for we need to communicate
about something important. So basically it's
our way of saying we need to talk.

hey babe, what's wrong?

loml ✨🌻🤎
I don't think I can do this
anymore

do what babe?

loml ✨🌻🤎
Be in a relationship with you
anymore

wait .. are you serious rn?

what did i do? 😔

loml ✨🌻🤎
Babygirl you didn't do anything,
it's just I keep appearing in the
spotlight .. but it's not for my music
which is what I should be focused
on.

its because of the shade room
posts?

wow .. so what i'm hearing is it's my
fault that you're in the spotlight for
the wrong reasons AND i'm a
distraction?

loml ✨🌻🤎
No baby 😔

I knew this wouldn't go good.
But please can I have some time
to think about this?

take all the time you need.

loml ✨🌻🤎
I really do love you a lot
babygirl, I'm so sorry 😞
Read 10:45pm

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The blood boiling inside of me wanted
nothing more than to respond with
"fuck you".

But on the other hand heartbroken
me, wanted so badly to crawl in
bed and cry.

I tried to follow through with the
heartbroken's decision .. but I couldn't
move, I genuinely felt stuck in my
tracks.

And with that, my body collapsed from
beneath me, and I started shaking
frantically as I sobbed loudly on the
cold title kitchen floor.

Lissa must've heard me from her
bedroom; she just held me in
her arms until I was okay-ish
enough to explain why I was
currently weeping in the middle
of our kitchen floor.

She wiped away the stray tears
that were rolling down my
cheeks. With the help of Lissa
I managed to gain the strength to
get up off the floor, and make it
to my bedroom.

She told me when she finished
writing notes for class, she'd
come back and watch movies
with me ... seeing how I didn't
want to be left alone with my
running thoughts tonight.

The best way to describe how
I'm feeling at this moment;
is the scene in Euphoria when
Rue held her pee for so long,
which resulted in her being
admitted to the hospital for
a kidney infection.