The Notes I Leave On The Fridge

did you ever

hey i have
a question.
did you ever
gaslight
yourself?
did you ever
you know,
talk yourself
into thinking
you were crazy?
or wicked?
or not very
nice?
or that everyone
hated you?
or that everyone
loved you?
or making a
good choice?
or making a
bad one?
did you
ever do that?
i always talk
circles around
and around
myself.
i think that
people like me
but then i think
that maybe i'm
just making up
that they
like me.
or that i'm
making too
big a deal out
of something
that is a big deal.
it's all very
confusing.
but maybe I'm
just making up
that i do this
and i'm actually
just fine.