Reality : Not So Beautiful [COMPLETED]

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After this weird date over a tiring afternoon, I wanted to have some peace. Thousands of thoughts ran through my mind yet none of them crossed mine. I lay on my bed staring at the ceiling blankly. This guy, Anuj, didn't insult me over my face unlike the first guy. Still something... I can't catch what it's though... disturbed my mind. As my eyelids hugged each other.... I saw myself... the class 10th's Pritha... It was Partho's birthday and he was giving us treat. I still didn't had any of the feelings for Pranzal. We all stood a roadside fast food stall after the school's extra class and he was standing by me. Partho gave us chowmein and momo treat... yummy... I was happy to have it. Vedika with a 'not so satisfied face blurted "Partho.... This roadside chowmein is nice.. but.. I hoped you would take us for some biryani at the 'Fab Resturant'." At that time Fab Restaurant was the place where all the cool dude gangs of our school went for celebrations. Anup and Suvo agreed. Suvo demanded " Yes bro! Take us to Fab Restaurant one day bro!". I and Pranzal were so engrossed in our food that we hardly bothered about the conversation.
Vedika patted Pranzal "Slowly Pranzal... the food isn't running away! If you could kindly give your opinion about another treat keeping your chowmein aside"
Everyone gave a hearty laugh. Pranzal slurped the chowmein and chewed it making funny faces. Meanwhile I was asked for my opinion to which I replied "This treat is so good. Why bother Partho for another treat." After gulping it he replied "What yaa... This chowmein is the yummiest one. And after this you want treat in that ... Fab Restaurant?" Patting Partho's shoulder he continued "Dude! If these people go for another treat elsewhere.. then just pass me on the part of my and Pritha's money for treat.. We shall get ourselves treat here.." saying so he looked at me and with a smile he passed his hand for hi-five. I hifived.

Pranzal... huh... really he was a guy I really adored and respected. His behaviour.. His simplicity was so much appealing... huh.... what to do now. I very well know that I can never get him. How can I?? I didn't have any contacts with him since years. Might be he has a beautiful and deserving girlfriend. Huh...

I felt so silly of me. Am I the one who is in too much demand of a good guy? Are all boys like Anuj and Shravan? Or is it my fault that guys mocked me? Should I change myself? But how? And moreover why? Just for these boys? Why didn't ever I had a boyfriend? Was it me? Will Monojit ... also be... the same...??