The Puppeteer part 2 (cut and repost)

The Puppeteer - a promise

I fall asleep sitting in that cell, leaning against the cement wall..

I open my eyes when I heard the loud sound of the iron bars then something..or rather someone has been thrown to the floor. I heard the locks, then the sound of footsteps fading away.  I gritted my teeth as my sense start kicking in. My head hurts..my whole body hurts.When I open my eyes again my heart froze..

There is a naked body laying on the floor, my heard dropped and my eyes widen.. I know who's that body is.. I know the small frame and that messy blond hair so much.. that is Zylen. I quickly reach him, calling his name a few time as I hold his shoulders. "Zylen! Stay with me! Wake up! Wake up!" I try to feel his breathing, I tried to find the pulse. My hands shaking so hard as I hold his wrist,

His pulse is so weak

What have they done to him?! He smelled like piss, fuck! I gritted my teeth in anger and frustration. His body is so cold. I quickly take off my uniform, leaving me with my white tank top. I wrapped his small body carefully.
"Zylen, wake up!" I call out for him again. I quickly move his bangs to check on his wounds. Where was he hurt? Was it fatal? Did they even take him to the doctor?..no they don't.. Fuck that Colonel! He fooled me! How could I be so dumb..

..how could I be so dumb.. Zylen..

I paused when I saw blood between his lips. I open his mouth and I felt my eyes burning..

..they burn his tongue with cigarattes..

Why would they do that to him? Why did they hurt him this much? Will he be able to eat? To talk after this?

I swallowed as I felt my throat tighten. I grab the collar on this neck and try to rip it off with unbearable anger in me. I hate to see it so much, I hate to see how blue his dying pale skin under those tight grip, but as hard as I tried, I can't pry it open.. dammit..dammit!

The marks on his necks trailing to his body caught my eyes.. it was whippings marks.. god.. it's still bleeding and there's a lot of it.. uncountable.. I check further to his legs.. it was filled with blood.. my eyes widen with what I saw.. they..they cut the inside of his thighs..he can't walk like this..they did it on purpose..  and what flowing down between his legs makes me trembles.

..they tortured him..

..this was not normal beatings.. this is a torture..
And I didn't manage to safe him..even I promised to protect him

I cried as I hold his face ".. I'm sorry Zylen.. I truly am.. I promise.. I promise to protect you.." I gritted my teeth and press his head to my chest, embracing him tightly, afraid of losing him. "..I failed.." my tears drop to his cheek

"I shouldn't.. I shouldn't leave you alone.. I'm sorry for leaving you crying alone.. I was selfish.. Zylen.. please don't die.."

"I'm sorry for hurting you.. please.. please open your eyes" I press my face to his head, desperately hugging him, stroking his face hoping this won't be the last time I could hold him. Wishing so much to see him open his eyes, to see him smile.. to see him alive. I stroke his bloody hair as my heart is tearing apart. Remembering how I treated him this evening makes me frustrated, hating myself for being a jerk.. he didn't tell me.. because he doesn't want me to get hurt.. he avoid me .. because he doesn't want anyone to know.. he didn't do anything wrong..yet, I yelled at him, I was rough.. I made him cry.. I left him crying for fuck sake!

I gritted my teeth and sobs harder. ".. Zylen.. I'm sorry I'm a big idiot.. I'm sorry for being a jerk.. I-I didn't know..it was this bad" I broke harder. It was so bad.. he was hurt this bad. He never said how badly he was hurt.. he didn't tell me about his uncle.. he didn't tell say anything about the bullying.. he never tell me about the trainers...how much pain has he kept secret?

"Why.. how c-could they.. do this to you.." I hugged him tighter and kiss his head "you're a good boy.."

..I like everything about Zylen.. he doesn't deserve to be hurt like this. I pursed my lips and open my eyes

..I can't give up

"it's going to be alright, okay? You'll be fine, I promise" I inhaled quickly to clear my nose and quickly brush his hair aside. My eyes firm to his unconscious face. I laid him down slowly and  I pressed the huge cut between his thighs but the bleeding won't stop. I need to stop the bleeding. I pulled my bloody hands away and quickly torn my own uniform that I  wrapped to him. I bind the wound tightly, I wipe the blood on his face. Suck out the blood in his mouth and keep him warm by hugging him.

I lean against the wall with Zylen in my arms. Feeling so tired with all the crying I had. My body are swollen from the beatings as well.

He doesn't wake up.. doesn't even move. I felt despair but I could feel his breathing.. there is hope.. there is still a chance to see him open his eyes again. I let him rest in my grasps.

How can I save him from this..? I really wish I could free him, take him out from this hell and show him things he never knew.. things that will make him happy.. I'll do anything..  I don't want to see him getting hurt or cry anymore.. I'll do anything .

...

"I..ac.."

"...S-sac..

I heard those voice calling for me, I remember what happened and woke up in sharp gasps and cold sweats. I saw Zylen looking at me.. his eyes are dead, it hurts just to watch it, but  excitement and relieve took over me as I reacted in shock "Zylen!" I quickly hug him then let him go to look at him and his condition "Can you breath? Does it hurt anywhere? Are you cold?" I asked hastily, overwhelmed by worries once again when I remember how badly he was hurt.

But what I heard next broke my heart

"..s-so..rry"

He apologized to me.. what did he apologized for? It was my fault for being weak, not his. My eyes went wider as I spoke to him, wanting him to listen, wanting him to trust me and stop blaming himself "it's not your fault Zylen.. it's not your fault at all.. don't blame yourself for this" I hugged him again. I felt his fingertips lightly touch my cheek "R..-un..I..aac"

I heard how hard for him to speak.. his tongue must be hurt. I hold his boney mutilated hand, I hold myself from shaking in sadness. "No, I'll take you with me..  I won't leave you here with all these monsters"

"But..I...s-saac..hu..-rt" I hug him tighter like there's no tomorrow. I don't want to let him go. I felt my eyes burning with his words. He's worried about my bruised face from last night.. he is worried about my injuries, worried about me getting hurt..this is nothing compares to his wounds. He could have died, I thought I lost him.. "shh.. don't speak Zylen.. you're hurt"

"Will..-am..kill.. don't want I..s-saac..die"I felt how he suddenly breath harder, he's traumatized and about to burst into tears. I quickly pulled off and press his hand to my nose as I look at him to stop him from crying. His dead eyes is clouded in fear.. so do I..  I don't want to die.. I know at this rate.. I won't get away easily.. but somehow, I know I'm not going to die..

That's right.. I'm not going to die

I'm going to make it through somehow, but how long can Zylen stand..

"Zylen, I won't die, everything will be fine. I promise I won't leave you.. let's get out from here together alright?" I give him a smile, trying as hard as I could to look confident, to be reassuring for him. But I am afraid..

Afraid of loosing him..afraid I won't make it in time

I saw tears flooding his eyes with my words, he try to reply my smile, I can see his lips are trembling on his Innocent sad face. I could tell, he is afraid, sad and feel guilty for dragging me into this situation. But it's not his fault.. I am the one who got myself dragged into this mess, but I'm glad if that was meant to safe  this unfortunate soul. I rather be here with him and stop his sufferings, than watching him suffer alone forever.

He gave his trembling left pinky "..promise?" His voice was small and broken. I smile wider, my eyes wet.. I felt his trembling fingers as I carefully wrap our pinkies.. ".. promise"

He trembled hard and cried "shh.. it's alright.. it's going to be okay.." I hug him close to my chest. I felt him throbbed harder swallowed by fear and sadness.. desparately clinging for hope and safety " everything will be alright..
Let's get through this together..you are not alone Zylen.. remember.. I'll always be with you.."