The Puppeteer part 2 (cut and repost)

The Puppeteer - Yearning for love

The food right upon me right now would surely makes me gobble it  mouthful. But I didn't, I just stay there, watch and stare.

And right upon me is my master..

"You don't even touch your food, don't tell me you're not hungry" he gave me that friendly look he always gave to his friends. It was awkward for me. I didn't even smile back.

I scratch my other leg using my toes. It feels weird to sit on the chair. He usually let me eat on the floor, not on the table... He said it would be easier for him to bang me as I eat back then...

And right now.. I didn't know what would he do to me.

"What's wrong?" He asked, looks a bit concerned

I shake my head and stay quiet.

"Tell me what's wrong" he demand. He sounds more serious this time, which sunk my spirit even more. I tremble because I am afraid of him...

He reach my cheek with his large hand across the table, I startled.

"Easy my boy" he tried to calm me down. I gulp and look at him, that emerald eyes that use to stare down at me is something I would never forget. But right now.. even I am afraid of him once he touch me softly.. I don't know why I just want to be touch by him. I want him to carresed my cheek, pat my head..and sweep me off my feet. I want to be loved..

Not hated..

"William.." I croaked.. as I felt lump in my throat "I don't want to be hated anymore.." our eyes met, mine are almost teary..

He paused and look at me, I can't read his expression. But he seems concerned about me..

"I just wanted to be loved.." I swallowed and let tears streaming down my cheek.

He wipes it off slowly by his thumb and let my face rest on the rest of his hand. "You are loved, Zylen.." he spoke slowly.

"Thank you..master" I tried to hold my trembling lips. I felt like crying by that word.. is this how it felt to be love? Isn't this what I'm desperate for all these years? I finally got it.. something I..

Wait, wait a minute

I was loved before.. I was ..and it wasn't from him.. It was from ..

I hold his hand on my cheek "Master.... would you take me to her..please?"

..my mother

"Her?" He asked, leaving the spoon in his plate

I nodded "my mom... I..I miss her William.." I cried "I wanted to see her.." her pictures I saw holding me as a child flashes in my head..and it make my sobbed harder. My chest hurt..  I want to meet her "I miss her..I really miss her.."

Master love me..after all he did for me right now..right now I can finally see my mom...

.. Mom..

"No" he firmly said and my eyes wide

.. What?  Why..?

"Why..? I- I miss her ..I really miss her"

"You can't" he let go of my cheek, I catch his hand and grasp it with my both hands "William.. please..please.. I won't ask anything ever again..I promise"

"Why do you even want to see her..? " suddenly his eyes seems threatening, my whole body tremble violently.. but my heart drive me to try harder..

"She's the one who sold you with your father, don't you understand? They don't even want to see your face, you are not welcome there. I won't take you there" he said firmly, as if he want me to lose my hope..no.. he's crushing my hope