My Beloved Raven,

xii

This one's just sorrow. So much sorrow.

Did you know that
everytime I look at you
-and this one's for you raven-
my heart weeps.

Did you know that planets make sounds?
Venus sounds horrifyingly lonely.
That is probably what my heart sounds like
when I see you walk around.

Did you know that I hated studying about the stars and planets?
You did and I saw you look at me like I was a worm when you did.
Now, I know what black holes are and how sometimes you make me feel like one.
I read all your books about them.
I didn't want to.

Did you know that I've slowly started loving the stars and planets?
I look for Venus everytime I'm about to cry.
I think we're friends now. I know she shines for me.
You told me a worm would never be able to comprehend to universe,
smug that I would never reach your standards.
You didn't let me prove you wrong.
Coward.

Did you know that I never made it to the finish line?
You did. You must have. Because you wiped it off.
You sent me on a race I would never finish.
Because you didn't want me to,
and I don't know why.

I don't know why you cannot love me
I don't know why you cannot even look at me.

And I absolutely do not know why I cannot look at my planets anymore.
I just can't.
I'm afraid that Venus has lost her friend.
And her wailing is proof that I'm not the only one.

-You gave me the stars. But did you?

-《♡》-

People suck. You don't. Remember that.
*ily*