The Weeknd

Lines

I woke up to voices, female voices. I sat up in the bed and opened my eyes. Women dressed as slutty as I did, scattered the room. And I'm butt naked under this cover. "Here, no one wants to see what you don't got." A tall white girl throws a robe at me and laughs jokingly with the other girls. I slid out of bed, and put on the robe. I picked up my heels and my dress. "Wooah, where'd you think you're going?" A girl on a couch pulling out white substance from her purse said looking at me. "Well I'm in college, I have classes today so.." I didn't want to be apart of whatever these ladies are doing. It feels awkward enough they found me shacked up. They started giggling at me, like I was a joke. "Come sit, Carmel." I looked around and I was the only dark shade here. I walked up to the couch and sat down. She poured whatever it is in that plastic bag, all over the glass table. "Dig in ladies!" Then they all started bending down, chopping at this stuff, then snorting it. This has to be cocaine. And then music started playing out of nowhere. When they were finished, they started dancing. "I'm Luke," she looks at me, then down at the table. "Rahslyn," I respond. "Want some, you smell like pot, so I'm guessing you don't mind a little edge." She said chopping a few lines. "I'm fine." I said. "No here," she handed me a rolled up dollar, and scooted over so I can try it. "If you don't do it, I'ma smack the shit out of you, and strip you naked, and kick your boney ass out." She said with her forearm on her leg. She looked so out. Her bags were deep, and red. Her hair looked dirty, but her clothes said otherwise. I leaned over, and snorted three lines, without even thinking cause her threat was enough. "Good girl," she said while grabbing me by my hair and lifting my head up at the end of my last line. "Oh my god," I whispered to myself. I leaned back, and lifted my legs onto the couch. I didn't know what to do. I started taking off the split ends in my hair. "Come here," Luke put her hand in front of me and I jumped. I thought she was going to hit me. I grabbed her hand, and stood up.

"What if we get caught."
"This is Blackfield, we are far from police because of the low population." We started walking where everyone was dancing.
"Ok, why are we doing this anyway?"
"Because it's fun, and we're glass table girls."
"But I'm not."
"You will be." Luke said with guarantee.
"What if I don't want to be?" I was now dancing and chatting with her like it was normal.
"It's too late."
"Too late?!"
"Yeah, you're an xo girl."
"What?" All what she was saying was crossing me down. I was dancing, and thinking about how I just fucked up my life. But this is just a one time thing right. I look up and looked at all the other girls, and they looked miserable. They're just faking their happiness.
"This is just a one time thing?"
"We do this often."

I didn't ask anymore questions.
I went to the bathroom, and put on my clothes so fast. And didn't even put on my heels, I kind of just ran out of the loft and ran all the way downstairs. I have never ran so fast in my life. I don't know if it was the drugs, or the fact that I was terrified of this lifestyle. As I started up the car, and tried to back up. I backed up into a tree. Trying to calm myself down because I was high and over myself. I saw the girls in my rear view mirror, outside watching me and laughing. Luke tried to run after me, but I drove off faster then I should have. "Rahslyn! Get your ass back here!" I can hear her voice fade into the wind at I drove recklessly. I was almost 6 miles into town and I needed to get my shit together. I grabbed my phone that I left in the car, and pulled over. I can't drive like this, or I know I'm going to crash. I called Big. The only person I can talk to right now without that judgy feel.

Big : Yeah
Me : I'm high as shit and I need you to pick me up, I'm on the Rosemont, Blackfield road 6 miles out of town. I can't drive, or I just know I'm going to crash. I already did once, but please.
Big : Damn, what are you on?
Me : Cocaine.
Big : Haha, oh my god. I don't even want to know. But alright I'm on my way.

I sat in the car and waited, and waited. Then it finally wore off. And I felt even more down. Like I was so down, I fell asleep in the car.
"Hahahaha, oh my god. You came down. Haha, yo get up. Wake up ma." Big said tapping the window. I woke up so strung out. "Hey B," I don't know why I whispered. I stepped out the car, and pushed my hair back from in front of my face. I grabbed my heels on the passenger seat, and got in Big's truck. "Should I even ask what you were doing all the way out here?" Big said as he jumped into his truck. "Man, just take me home." He didn't ask anymore questions. He tooked me back to the dorms. And I wanted to fix shit with Minnie. Soon as I got in, I changed my clothes and got into my sweats and put my hair in a bun. I took off all my makeup. I knocked on her door. And a guy opened it "What's up?" He was tall, shirtless, and tan. His hair was perfect, it looked like a Justin Bieber haircut but it was black. "Who is it babe?" I heard Minnie yell out. I pushed passed him. "What the fu-" he said after me. I looked around and saw her in her closet. "Rahslyn!" She looked at me and her facial expressions change. I grabbed her arm trying to get her into my room so we could talk alone. "What the fuck are you doing?!" Minnie yelled trying to unrestraine herself. I only got so far with her in the hallway when Mr. handsome decided to pull us apart. "I need to talk to you." I gave her that face, the face of help and seriousness.

"Babe, go back inside I'm fine." I'm a little ticked off she got someone and didn't tell me. But I couldn't be a hypocrite cause so much happend to me and I shut her out. "Wanna smoke a blunt?" She had one on her ear, and we just walked into my room. "What's the deal with you?" She sounded calm lighting the blunt hanging from her mouth. We sat down on my bed. And I told her everything. Everything Abel based, doing blow today, and crashing my car.

"Do you think you're making smart decisions?"
"No, not at all."
"You know it's only been a week of school, and you keep fucking up. You only went to your classes one day. " Minnie passed the blunt half smoked all for me.
"I know Minnie damn, but Abel. He's so not what I expected. He's dreamy, and he's taughtingful. He corrupts my day and night thinking."
"What are you going to do now?"
"Nothing."
"What about your car?"
"It's recked, I don't want that shit car."
"That three grand?"
"Decided to put it in a bank for some funds."
"Well as you see, I got the hottest guy in the school, in my bedroom waiting for me. I love you Rahslyn. Like I have your back through whatever. Don't make these decisions alone. Well I'm going to leave you to it then." She gave me a really tight hug. One I needed. "Night."
I also decided I'm going to stay up since there's no school tomorrow and just watch Netflix, cause why not.