Summer Love

Hospitals and Jealousy

*BEEP BEEP BEEP*

There was a constant, monotone beeping sound right next to me. UGH! What is that? I tried to move my hand, but it stung, like hell. UGH! Why does it hurt so much? I tried opening my eyes to see where I was, but I was blinded by bright white lights. Wait, am I in a hospital? But why?

“Oh my god! You’re awake! Someone get the doctors! She’s awake!” He came upto me, “Jas, I’m so glad you’re awake” he held onto my hand and kissed my arm. Were there stitches on my arm? I don’t know how I got them, but it was hurting a lot!

I winced in pain and snatched my arm away from him. I looked at my arm and tried to remember how it happened.

I firmly shut my eyes, and tried to remember. Everything crashed into my mind. The mall. The dress. That girl. The restroom. Everything rushed into my mind and tears started to stream down my face.

“Oh, don’t cry Jas. It’ll be okay” he was still next to me.

“Why?” I asked.

“Why what?” he was confused.

“Why did you save me?” I said quietly.

“I can’t live without you Jas. I wasn’t gonna let you die in mine or Riley’s arms”

“But I shouldn’t have lived!” I said, this time louder.

“Yes you did! I don’t know what people said to you, but you shouldn’t listen to them. You’re so much better than all of them” he tried to soothe me, but it wasn’t working.

“She was right”

“Who?” he asked.

“The girl at the mall and in the restroom” I sighed. “Your ex”

“Eleanor? Jas, you shouldn’t listen to her. She’s just jealous”

My eyes started to get watery. I covered my eyes with my hands and tried to wipe away the tears while Louis rubbed my shoulders.

“Why me?”

“What?”

“Why me Louis?!”

He didn’t reply.

“Why did you choose me? Why do people have to hate me?”

“I love you Jas. You’re amazing and beautiful and those people who say shit, they’re just jealous. You shouldn’t listen to them”

“It’s hard though..to not listen to them”

“I know it’s hard, but you’ll get through this” he came closer and hugged me tight, close to his body. “I won’t let you go, ever. We’ll get through this together Jas. I promise”

“JAS! You’re okay!” Riley started yelling. She came running to me and enveloped me in a tight bear hug.

“Oh my god! Don’t ever do that again! You had us all freaked out. I thought I was gonna leave me best friend” she started crying and hugged me even tighter. I started crying into her shoulder. I didn’t really realize how much they cared. Did they actually mean it or..? I shrugged off the thought and released myself from the hug.

“Jas, we’re so glad you’re okay” Liam said.

“Yeah, you had us all scared. And Riley here wouldn’t stop crying. She kept blaming herself that she reached too late” Niall said.

“We’re so glad you’re okay Jas” Harry said, hugging me tightly.

“We don’t what we would’ve done if you didn’t make it” Zayn said and hugged me. “We all love you so much. We don’t wanna lose someone like you..ever” he continued. I nodded my head, but in the back of my head, I knew they didn’t really mean it.

“When can I leave?” right then the doctor walked in.

“Glad to see you’re awake” I smiled lightly, but it was mostly forced.

“Yeah, I’m awake. When can I leave?” I asked, eagerly.

He chuckled a bit at my impatience, “Well your charts are perfectly fine, so you can leave”

“Okay”

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We reached back to the hotel and it was crowded by paps and fans. Louis held onto me tightly and pushed through the crowds, but I couldn’t help but hear what they were saying.

“Jas, is it true you tried to commit suicide because of Louis’ ex? What did she say that made you do that?” or “Why didn’t she succeed? She’s so weak! She couldn’t even die! Louis doesn’t deserve her!” A lot of fans yelled that and I couldn’t help that shed a tear.

We walked into the lobby and Louis noticed, “Hey, don’t listen to them. They’re not right. It’s not that you don’t deserve me, I don’t deserve you” he cupped my face and I nodded my head, unable to speak.

“I promise it’ll be okay” he hugged me and kissed my head. We walked over to the elevator to see Eleanor waiting for it to come as well.

UGH! Why is she always here?

“Hey Lou. Jas” she eyed me from head to toe.

Me and Lou didn’t reply. We just wanted the elevator to come so we could get away from her as soon as possible.

“Really? The silent treatment? Lou, you know that doesn’t work with me” she came closer to and put her hand on his cheek. He smacked her hand away from him.

“Don’t touch me. EVER” he hissed at her.

*DING* the elevator came and she walked in.

“Are you gonna come in or what?” she asked.

“We don’t wanna be anywhere near you”

“Suit yourself” and with that the elevator doors closed and the rest of the boys joined us.

“What’s going on?” Harry asked.

“Nothing” Lou quickly responded.

“Jas, is everything okay?” Riley asked.

“El was here”

“That b--”

“Riley! Stop!” I cut her off.

“But..”

“No buts”

She crossed her arms across her chest and sighed.

“Wait, wasn’t she at the mall? What did she say to you?” Lou asked.

“Nothing”

“Jas”

“Nothing!” I yelled back at him. He took a step back and the elevator opened. I quickly walked in and pressed number 9, but before the doors could close, Louis walked in. Everyone else just stood outside the elevator.

We were silent the whole elevator ride and when the doors opened, I rushed quickly over to my room, and Louis followed behind.

We walked into my room and I broke apart. I was crying so hard. I haven’t cried like this for so long.

“Shh, it’ll be okay” Louis calmed me down.

Once I was calm. Louis asked me the one question he was dying to know, “Jas, what did she say?”

“She called me fat, well not really. She said my dress would just hang on her body. And she said I was nothing special and I didn’t deserve you. And I believed her”

“Wait, when did she say this? At Topshop?”

“Well she called me fat there, but the rest of the stuff, she said that in the restroom”

“She was there with you?”

“Yeah. She was there, and when she left, I walked into the stall”

“Jas, please don’t listen to her. Please. She’s just jealous. You’re not fat. You’re so special and perfect. I love you so much Jas”

“I love you too Louis” he leaned in and we kissed.

I rested my head on his chest and fell into a dreamless sleep, listening to his steady heartbeat.