Summer Love

Let's Go To The Mall

Jasmine’s POV

“Louis?”
“El?”
“Who’s she?” I whispered, thinking only Louis could hear.
“I’m Eleanor. You must be the lucky lady for Lou” she smirked.
“Um..yeah” I shrugged. Louis took my hand in his and held onto it tightly.

We walked out of the elevator, “Excuse me” Louis said and walked past his ex. I just walked away with Louis.


We reached the lobby and I could see Louis was pissed and upset.
“Lou?”
“What?” he snapped at me. I just backed away.
“Oh, I’m sorry Jas. I didn’t mean to snap at you like that” he cupped my face in his hands and I just looked down and shook my head, trying to shake away my tears.
“I’m so sorry Jas” he hugged me and kissed my forehead and put his chin on my head.

We stayed like that for a moment until the rest of the boys came along with Riley.

“What’s going on?” Riley asked. I was still holding onto Louis tightly.
He didn’t say anything and I stepped away from him, “Nothing’s wrong”
“Jas, I can tell when you’re lying, and that’s the biggest lie ever”
“Lou, we saw El” Harry said.
“Who’s El?” Riley asked.
“My ex”
“Wait, what is she doing here?” Riley questioned. She was both shocked and confused.
“I don’t know”
“Is this what she was saying to you in the texts Lou?” I asked.
“What texts?” Liam asked.
“She’s been saying we should get back together since me and Jas have been together, and I told her that’s not gonna happen, but I guess she doesn’t understand and is here --”
“To win you over?” I finished his sentence, looking at him in the eyes.
“Jas, you’re so much better than her. Don’t worry about her. She’s just jealous” he placed his hands on my shoulder.
I nodded my head.

“So are we still going shopping?” Niall asked.
“Niall!” Riley hissed, hitting his arm.
“No Riley, it’s fine. We can still go, if everyone’s okay?” I said.
“Are you sure Jas?” Louis asked, worry written all over his face.
“I’m fine Lou, now let’s go before the shops close!” I whined and pulled his arm.

As we walked out of the hotel, paps and fans surrounded us. Not again. I signed and held onto Louis tightly.
People started screaming at us: “Jas! Are you okay with Louis’ ex living in the same hotel as you?” or “Jas! Do you think Louis will dump you for his ex?” and other shit like that. I couldn’t help but think of some of that stuff to be true. She was really pretty, and she does know more about him than I do. What if he does go back to her?

“Jas. you okay?” Lou asked, waving his hand in front of my face.
“What--, yeah. I’m fine. Sorry, just got lost in thought”
“Don’t worry about what they say. They’re just speaking bull--”
“Lou, stop”
“You don’t actually believe them, do you?”
I didn’t reply. I just started looking down at my hands.
“Jas, you shouldn’t believe in anything they have to say. They’re just jealous. They don’t know about us”
I nodded my head, but I was still looking down. He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and brought me closer to him, hugging me. I rested my head on his shoulder and shut my eyes for the rest of the car trip to the mall.

“Jas! Wake up! We’re here!” Louis yelled, trying to shake me awake.
“Wha--? What happened?” I asked.
“You fell asleep. We’re at the mall”
“Oh, right” I got up and left the van, and walked into the mall with Lou, but realized the others were nowhere to be found.
“Lou?”
“Yes love?”
“Where’s everyone else?” I asked.
“Oh, they left earlier. I decided to let you rest for a bit longer”
“Oh, okay”

We started walking around the mall to a bunch of stores. We finally stopped at Topshop. I’ve heard a lot about it and how amazing it was. I NEEDED to go in there!

“Lou! Can we please go to Topshop?! Please!!!” I begged. He laughed.
“Sure thing”
“YAY!” I ran into the store scanning everything. Everything  looked so good. I didn’t know where to start.
“Babe, you okay?” Louis asked as he placed his arms around my waist, making me jump a little.
“You scared me” I said as I hit his chest playfully.
“Sorry” he kissed the side of my head, “so anything catch your eye?”
“Yes! Everything looks so good! I don’t know how to choose” I whined.
He took something from behind him..he was holding onto something -- a dress. OMG! It looked amazing!
“Lou! Oh my god! It’s amazing!”
“Why don’t you try it on?” I nodded my head and walked over to the fitting rooms. It was a red strapless dress that reached my feet. The top part of it hugged my body perfectly, while the bottom part was flowy and had ruffles on them. It was the most beautiful dress I’ve ever seen. And when I wore it, it just looked so precious.

I walked out of the fitting room to see Louis on his phone, “Lou?”
He looked up at me and his eyes widened, “WOW, you look, wow” I giggled.
“You look absolutely gorgeous love”
I looked back at myself in the mirror, “You think?”
“Oh, I know” he came behind me and wrapped his arms around me and rested his chin on my shoulder. I searched for the price tag and my eyes widened. 250 pounds!
“Well, I guess I just have to look for something else” I said as I walked back to my fitting room.
“What? Why?” he grabbed my arm and turned me around.
“It’s 250 pounds Lou! I don’t have that kind of money”
“I’ll buy it”
“Lou, I’m not letting you buy this for me”
“Consider it as a gift”
“Lou, it’s too much”
“I’m a millionaire. I can afford to get you this dress”
“UGH! Fine, but I’m going to get something for you” I said as I pointed my index finger at him and walked back to my room, but stopped in my tracks when I saw a familiar face coming close to me.

“Jas?”
“Uh, hi Eleanor” I waved at her.
“What are you doing here?”
“Um..just shopping”
“Wow, that dress is absolutely gorgeous”
“Uh..thanks”
“I tried finding one in my size, but they were all gone”
“Oh, sorry about that”
“What size are you?”
“Uh..3”
“Oh, nevermind, yours won’t fit mine. It’ll just hang on my body” she rolled her eyes and walked away. Wait, did she just call me fat?

“What was she saying?” Lou came behind me.
“Oh, nothing much”
“Jas?”
“Lou, it’s fine. Don’t worry”
“Fine”
“I’m gonna go change and then we can go get something for you, kay?”
“Okay”

I walked back into the fitting room and took off the dress and looked at my body in the mirror. Was I really that fat? I started to feel insecure about my image again and my eyes began to feel watery, but I couldn’t cry. I couldn’t let Louis think of me like that -- weak. I wiped my eyes and changed back into my original clothes and headed out with the dress. Louis paid for it, even though I didn’t want him to, but he wouldn’t take no for an answer.

Suddenly, his phone rang.
“Ello”
“Yeah?”
“Sure, we’ll meet you there” he hung up his phone and looked at me.

“The boys and Riley are at the food court”
“Ohk”
“They want us to come there. Is that okay?”
“Yeah, sure”

I really wanted to go, but I just couldn’t eat anything. I was too fat to eat.



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We reached the food court and saw Riley and Niall eating away, while the rest of the boys were chatting amongst themselves.
“LOU!” Harry yelled.
“Harry!” Liam hit his arm, motioning him to shut up so people don’t hear.
“Sorry”

“Hey guys!” I said as I took a seat next to Riley. Louis sat besides me and across from Harry.
“You guys want some?” Harry asked as he passed us a McDonald’s tray with a burger and fries.
“It’s okay. I’m not hungry” I said, handing the food over to Louis.
“Are you okay Jas?” Lou asked.
“Yeah, I’ll be right back” I got up from the table and walked over to the restroom, but to my luck, I wasn’t there alone.

UGH! Why is she always here?

There she was - Eleanor - fixing her hair.
“Hey Jas”
“Hi” I said as I walked over to the mirror. I hardly even had any makeup on and I looked horrid. And my clothes were so weird. My fat was sticking out of everywhere.
“Are you okay?” she asked me. I just nodded my head. I didn’t wanna say anything to her.
“I don’t get it” she blurted out.
“What don’t you get?”
“Why Lou chose you? You’re nothing special”
I didn’t reply. I just stood there speechless. Who does she think she is? Oh right, she’s Eleanor Calder, Louis’ ex. But hell no is she gonna talk to me like that!
“Why don’t you save your time and energy, and forget about him. I doubt he even likes you. I mean look at you” she looked at me in disgust.
“It’d be better if you just left him now and save the heartbreak you’d go through later” she continued. And with that she walked out, and left me alone.

Did she really mean all that? Does he not like me like he said? I walked into a stall and brought my knees closer to my chest and cried. I cried and cried until there was nothing left in my eyes.

I opened my bag and took out one thing I never leave my home with, a piece of glass.

Yeah, it’s weird. Why do I keep a piece of glass with me?
Well, ever since I first started cutting, I used to do it at home, but my parents found out and sent me to therapy. They thought I got better, but I didn’t. The guy just passed me because I showed “improvement”, but it was all an act. Since then I’ve been doing it in secrecy, and that’s usually when I’m out of home, like right now.

I pierced it into my arm, deep and deeper. I was pretty sure I cut through a vein. My arm started to feel numb, along with the rest of my body. I started hearing someone yell out my name. It was a muffled voice. Some girl was calling out for me. Riley? My eyes started to become blurry and my vision was slowly fading. I couldn’t say anything; I lost my voice. My body was spread across the stall, and I laid there, lifeless.