Sticks 'n' stones

Dandelions

i'm scared
i tell people
i tell them i am scared
but everyone just tells me to pray in the steeple.

i am scared.
and i tell people because i want their help.
despite being in a good relationship for once
i fear being left.

i hate how i think about this.
especially being that we both share the same sexuality
you're probably scared of me leaving you too
we both know that's reality.

you said something.
one sentence scared me the most
"now i can have crushes on guys without it being weird"
that line makes me think you will cheat.

i hate him
i hate you
you made me this way
you made me scared

you left me in the dust
while i died
while i lost all my sense of worth.
you watched as i began to hide.

you made me hate my own boyfriend
why?
why did you do it?
because you're selfish.

and because of that
you left me in the dust
just like a dandelion head
that had been swept off in a single blow.

Monday 25th May 2020